Road Of My Life - d0ud0u

Aisleyne!

2009-02-27T03:00:00.002+08:00

I guess you guys would have know about Amabel(My sister's daughter), here's Aisleyne, my sis's daughter No.2! haha

Epitaphs Part 2(with collaboration to ZoomBeast)

2009-02-08T21:06:00.003+08:00

ZoomBeast finally updated his blog after i asked him to, so in exchange, i shall blog too after he asked me to...

Since his post talks about Epitaphs.. I shall just talk about my own Epitaphs too in exchange.

My first inspiration on preparing my own Epitaph is definitely based on Aikido.

Example 1:

Wow! My uncle is so cool!

2009-01-25T17:52:00.002+08:00

Today is new year eve and i got nothing to do at home. What flashes my mind is ang bao and money. Lol. Then suddenly, i thought of one of my rich relative. If i got a chance to get ang bao from him, how much would it be!? Anyway, he is one of my mother's younger sister's husband(so i should call him 姨丈?) LOL! So far, i don't remember getting any ang bao from him nor my aunty. I am not very close to my mother's side relative too, so i don't really care much. haha

Anyway, i went to do a research on him just now! LOL! Yes, i know i am a little bo liao. I never thought that I could get his information so easily from the net. Anyway, he is working for the government! haha. I would not know how cool and WEI DA he is actually until I went to do a deep research on him. He got a few positions(should be a very busy man).

1) A "BBM" Status(What kind of status is it anyway?).
2) Chairman of Chua Chu Kang CCC(what is CCC anyway?)
3) Chairman of Chua Chu Kang Secondary School Advisory Committee(Not sure if he is still one)
4) Public Service Star Award(BAR) - National Day Awards 2008
5) Member of Hong Kah Town Council's Tenders and Contracts Committee
6) Councillor of South West Community Development Council

LOL, overall, he is a great guy that contributed alot to the public. I feel so proud to have him as one of my relative. LOLOLOL!

I never thought that he is this great, though he is not a president or prime minister or MP, but being able to got all these are already.... COOL... But, he used to look like a normal uncle to me. LOL. Next time i will be working for the government too! LOL! I will do better than him! LOL!(talking cock again!)

My sister told me that she went to his house before when his daughter(my cousin) get marry. She says that they live in bungalow. I ask her: "confirm boh!? Or is it terrace or semi-detach or something? BUNGALOW and terrace is DIFFERENT wor!" She confirm that its a bungalow. I was like: "WTH! Why didnt i go!?"

Anyway, the last time i met him was during my grandpa's funeral half year back. So sad that my last grandparent is gone too. I wonder how the new year will be like this year. Anyway, i only get to know that he is a BBM and worked with the government at that time. BECAUSE, a very important guest came to send his condolence and everyone was having a commotion on "What! What!? Who's coming? What's so big!?". Then my mother told us that a MP was coming. Then i go on and ask: "Why why!? Why he come!? He is grandpa's friend ah!?" LOL! After all these, then my siblings and i know that our uncle is a BBM(should be someone with a good status). AND, I only know that he is a BBM, and thats all. Its only until i did a research on him just now that i know he got so many positions in the government. =.=

Anyway, that GOH is the MP of Chua Chu Kang SMC, Mr Gan something something. LOLOL! He came with a group of people from the government also(i think) and sit down for awhile, maybe 20min? and LEFT! I didnt make much big reaction or something towards him as i didnt give any heck.. LOL.. I just sat down and enjoy my DS games.

Nothing to blog! So....

2009-01-14T01:03:00.003+08:00

Saw this from Huihui's blog and my name found under the list of people that she wanna tag on.

So... here is it..

1) Do you have any initial when friends will call u ?

Some call me dou, my w25r fren called me "mentoes"(cause i was told that the first day i entered the class, i secretly ate mentoes without sharing with them. LOL), and 2 of my current semester fren called me "lao da" too. haha

2) What is your favorite food?

Shark Fins, BBQ Stingray(specifically from Jurong West 4** there only), Fried Oats Prawn(Mai pian xia, specifically from my father's coffee shop only), LOBSTERS, and MORE!

3) what is your most dislike food?

Can't think of any. Hehe

4) What is your favorite drinks?

Green tea

5) What is your most dislike drink?

Beer. haha

6) What is your favorite sports?

AIKIDO(actually not a sport, but was classified as sport in RP), Netball, Basketball, WII SPORT consider? hahahhaa

7) What is your favorite place in Singapore?

Home. Hahaha.

8) What is your favorite country?

Hong Kong and Japan

9) If you have a supernatural power, which person u will wish to read his mind?

Everyone's of course.

10) If you have a third eye, which person you wanna see?

Any nice ghost. haha

11) What is your 口头禅?

Shit you!

12) What is your most fear?

I am fearless! LOL!

13) If everyone in the world died? You were to save someone to bring back his/her life but u were be dead.. who will be that one?

My family

14) How much cash you wan to have to make yourself contented?

Enough for me to get whatever i wish for. So, might need few hundred millions.. LOL!

15) Let u choose, 1 million dollars or your sibling to die?

I will let my siblings die. LOLOLOL! Jkjk! Of course i want my siblings! 1 million is nothing compared to them!

16) If you were to spend 1 million in one day if not you will die, what will you do?

I will buy a good home or invest in property if i already had 1.. LOL..

17) What is your 理想情人 look like?

If can get a handsome and good personality one, why not?
But at least.. : average looking, "shun yan", between 160-175, not too fat or skinny(55kg-70kg), Non-smoker and drinker, have plan/goals, understanding, etc.

18) What is you dream career?

Police

19) What is your current career?

student. lol

20) Last but not least, if you were to ask God a question.. What should it be?

If i met him now, i will ask:
Who will my husband be?

If i met him later after i marry, i will ask:
What can i do to become rich in 1 day?

I blogged!

2009-01-06T12:24:00.003+08:00

Wow! Its been 1 month since i last posted! The time fly pass so fast! I have a 3 weeks holiday and yet i didnt have time to blog!(Actually i am lazy) And now, i blogged when i am in school! =.= Anyway, i just blogged... for the sake of blogging? haha..

More updates on me:

2008 had passed. Here comes 2009.. Hopefully i have a better luck this year?

Talking about christmas on december 25, i had a christmas party at my sister house where all the cousins and friends and thir cute little babies gathered together to enjoy sometimes on this "special"(i comma-ed it cause its not very significant to me) day. But its really a fun gathering! Everyone got christmas exchange and TONS of FOOD!

Next is countdown, where i don't celebrate. Only some new year wishes here and there through messages/msn. I DID watch the countdown party abit on ch8, but i preferred watching the one in HK. too bad, it only airs from 1030-1105, then continue at 1215-1245 =.= weird timing =.=

Next: about aikido. I advance again to another higher level. Blue(6th kyu) to Blue-gold(5th kyu). Next will be Brown(4th kyu) on march(hopefully), and brown-gold and it will be BLACK! Woohoo! Black is a really nice colour in most martial arts since most normal people will think that black = PRO! haha. But actually its not really the case, most important is experience.

Next: on my health. I strained my back nerves around the waist few weeks ago during aikido lesson. And the pain actually last for a week+. The pain is resticting me to do many actions like bending down, and sitting down, even when relaxing and walking. And i actually stands the pain for 1 whole week and attended various activities that will worsen the strain. I ta han the grading day(1 hours+ of continuous techniques) with the pain and i really need to give myself a round of applause. haha. And i PASSED! hehe.
And the next day, i still attended another aikido lesson. All these actually worsen the condition.

For the whole week. I didnt see any doctor. Everyone advised me to do so, but i didnt, yet. My mother even tell me to wait longer and see how. =.= Then they finally decide to bring me to the doctor. The doctor prescribed me with 3 medicines. First 2 that i had ate gaves NO EFFECT. I left the 3rd one to eat later at night cause it will cause drowsiness. I was hoping that the 3rd one will be of help. INDEED! Its a GREAT medicine! My back recovered 90% the next day when i wake up! BUT actually, 5-10min after i ate the medicine, i got allergy =.= Suddenly my whole body feels itchy all over, and I was looking for MOSQUITOES! Lol.. i thought that the mosquitoes causes it. But my brother who was sitting beside me feels nothing. And then, my inner mouth around the lip area suddenly swollen up. My faces got 3 small red patches and abit swollen. Then i know that its drug allergy =.=

Luckily, it recovered soon after i wake up, if not, i will really complaint to the doctor. LoL!

说对不起有用的话，要警察干嘛？

2008-12-04T08:11:00.002+08:00

Remember there's once a trend where someone apologised, they will reply: 说对不起有用的话，要警察干嘛？ and that person went defenseless?

Shinchan(小新)'s mother(美呀) found another way to counter it back!

美呀：对不起，小新

小新：说对不起有用的话，要警察干嘛？

美呀：=.= 要不要警察来告诉你要警察来干嘛！？

小新：=.=| （汗！无话可说）

Most of the children usually scare of police. Therefore.. shinchan went defenseless.. haha

I find it so funny when i saw the scene in the latest shinchan movie. Maybe next time i can crop it out to show his facial expression when he went defenseless.. haha

Handwriting Analysis

2008-12-01T15:35:00.004+08:00

I got a very good and accurate(for me, 99% true!) Handwriting Analysis website from my classmate Jimmy.

Here is it:

Handwriting Analysis

And here's the report of my handwriting Analysis. Damn true! And very detailed!

View Report

Welcome Liling Toh, here is your handwriting analysis.

Most people with a severe leftward slant have some type of childhood trauma they have yet to work through. Since we didn't actually "see the writing", we can't tell if she actually has a hard left emotional slant, but if so... she has issues with trust and it is likely rooted in childhood.

Liling has withdrawn into herself. She is reserved and shows her feelings only at times of great anger, extreme passion, or tremendous stress. Liling is an introvert. She makes decisions based on logic, therefore she is rarely impulsive. She doesn't find any need for expressing her emotions. In fact, she probably sees this emotional expression as an unnecessary waste of time. She has a hard time relating to an extreme extrovert, although it is common for her to be attracted to one. Many people do not understand Liling; it is difficult for them to really know how Liling feels. Liling enjoys being alone, and probably prefers working alone. Working with her hands is a pleasure.

Liling's basic nature is to look out for herself first. Although she can and does feel emotions, perhaps as deeply as anyone, she just almost always harbors them inside.

The first time someone angers Liling, she probably will not say anything to that person at that time. However, she will mentally keep track of everything this person does wrong to her until she cannot hold her emotions inside any longer. Then; Boom! Liling will cloud up and rain all over them. And she will never regret telling someone off, because she knew what she was saying the entire time. She won't impulsively tell someone off.

Emotional stories will not sway Liling. She thinks totally with judgment, first considering every situation by the effect it will have on her.

Liling needs space and time alone. She will be much more efficient if given a job alone, rather than being surrounded by people.

People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Liling doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.

Liling will demand respect and will expect others to treat her with honor and dignity. Liling believes in her ideas and will expect other people to also respect them. She has a lot of pride.

Liling will be candid and direct when expressing her opinion. She will tell them what she thinks if they ask for it, whether they like it or not. So, if they don't really want her opinion, don't ask for it!

In reference to Liling's mental abilities, she has a very investigating and creating mind. She investigates projects rapidly because she is curious about many things. She gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but she soon must slow down and look at all the angles. She probably gets too many things going at once. When Liling slows down, then she becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, she must slow down to do it. She then decides what projects she has time to finish. Thus she finishes at a slower pace than when she started the project.

She has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. Her mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. She can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Liling can then switch into her low gear. When she is in the slower mode, she can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. She is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip.

Liling is a practical person whose goals are planned, practical, and down to earth. This is typical of people with normal healthy self-esteem. She needs to visualize the end of a project before she starts. she finds joy in anticipation and planning. Notice that I said she plans everything she is going to do, that doesn't necessarily mean things go as planned. Liling basically feels good about herself. She has a positive self-esteem which contributes to her success. She feels she has the ability to achieve anything she sets her mind to. However, she sets her goals using practicality-- not too "out of reach". She has enough self-confidence to leave a bad situation, yet, she will not take great risks, as they relate to her goals. A good esteem is one key to a happy life. Although there is room for improvement in the confidence catagery, her self-perception is better than average.

Liling is sarcastic. This is a defense mechanism designed to protect her ego when she feels hurt. She pokes people harder than she gets poked. These sarcastic remarks can be very funny. They can also be harsh, bitter, and caustic at the same time.

Liling is very self-sufficient. She is trying not to need anyone. She is capable of making it on her own. She probably wants and enjoys people, but she doesn't "need" them. She can be a loner.

Something is incomplete in Liling's life. She feels frustration relating to her physical needs and desires. Somewhere in her life there is some disappointment, non-fulfillment, and interruption. This is very likely to relate to Liling's sexual needs.

Liling has a healthy imagination and displays a fair amount of trust. She lets new people into her circle of friends. She uses her imagination to understand new ideas, things, and people.

*Anyway, those pictures are the options i chose that best describe my handwriting style.

Know more about me?

2008-11-26T20:09:00.003+08:00

Yesterday, my RJ question was: If you had to choose ONE word to describe your personality, what would it be and why?

I was thinking what are a suitable word to describe a personality for me to use, so i decide to research about: "word describing personality".

I searched something about introversion and extraversion. After reading, i wrote and submitted this:

"I personally thinks that i am more of a introversion
person. Actually i did a research on what kind of words
are there that describe personality and i found these 2
words: introversion and extraversion. After looking
true the descriptions, i found that i am more towards
the introverts.

Anyway, like what the resources mentioned about an
introvert, I preferred to be alone in a quiet
environment rather than finding myself in the noisy and
crowded environment. Usually trust my own set of beliefs
and keep to it, and won't easily get influenced by
friends or others.

I prefer to spend time by myself rather than being in
groups. Its not that i don't like to be with my friends
and build up my network, but i just feel that friends is
just a companion that you can rely on sometimes when you
feel like it, but afterall, you had to depend on
yourself as your friend is not always there for you. Or
rather, to me, family and myself is more important than
friends. But, most of the time, i am happy with my
friends and i try my best to let my friends enjoy the
time with me.

And yea, i listen more than i talk actually. Cause i
know that listening is always safer than you talk. Who
knows that you might say something wrong or not
appropriate and end up regretting. So, its better to be
safe than sorry. Think first before you talk! Thats why
most of the time, when someone ask me a question, i need
sometimes to think, trying to find a better answer
before speaking out. But sometimes this may make people
fed up. And yea, i am probably a more cautious and
hesitant, always trying to think of the consequences
before taking action.

In school work, i am always focused on one task at a
time. When i am doing work, i don't wanna or will not
get distracted by other stuffs. Especially when someone
talk to me or ask me question while i am focusing on my
work, i will take like 10 or 20 sec respond. Its like, i
will ehhhhh.... for like 10 sec, trying to entertain
them first(which at the moment, i didnt even absorb what
they said), then i continue with ohhh.. AGAIN?.

Basically, i fulfilled all of the description for an
introversion from what i research on."

To clarify, being an introvert doesn't mean SHY, TIMID or NO FRIENDS, or AUTISTIC aka ZHI BI. lol.. It's just that they preferred to be alone rather than finding themselves in a crowd or party party. In other words, introverts charge their energy through individual activities while extroverts charge their energy through wild party or places with crowds or big groups of friends.

The full information on Introversion/introverts and Extraversion/extroverts is here:

http://psychology.suite101.com/article.cfm/the_introvert

Finally, i took this test and.....

Your result for The Introversion/Extroversion Test...

You are an introvert!

53 Introverted, 0 Extroverted and 43 Balanced!

You are the philosopher, the scientist, the architect. You love to analyze and draw conclusions just for the sake of knowledge. You seek information and stimulation for your own mind. You are unconventional, innovative, and have a vivid imagination.

Because you are so involved with your own ventures, however, you may tend to forget about others around you. Keep in mind that there is a world beyond your own thoughts, but don't abandon your brilliant mind.

Take The Introversion/Extroversion Test at HelloQuizzy

More update on Yoyo!

2008-11-11T22:37:00.001+08:00

LOVE YOYO!

Hakama Chaos

2008-11-11T22:16:00.004+08:00

Have been wearing my hakama for 4 or 5 times and yet to wash it!

Don't say that i am dirty or what. I wanted to wash it, but no one in Aikido IG actually wash their hakama cause they don't know how to! And also, every hakama owner scares that after they wash it, the folding guide line will become less obvious.

Finally, yesterday, we finally manage to approach to instructor Cheen Cheen to ask her, how should we wash our hakama!

After i went home yesterday, i faster go and hand wash my hakama and soak it into water for like few hours(i almost forget to continue washing). The water is all BLACK! i don't know is it because it hasn't been washed for a long time after sitting, kneeling, rolling, falling here and there in the DIRTY tatami mats, OR is it because of the color dropping. Should be the 2nd one anyway. Lucky the color of my hakama still remain the same.

Next is IRONING time! I spent 1hr+ to iron this stupid hakama! At first, i don't even know how to iron it! I spent like 15min ironing each line and the hakama keep dropping off from the ironing board stand. Sweat went all over my body and i decided to on the air con while ironing. I feel so pek chek and finally, i decided to FOLD the hakama first with those lines that are still there, but less obvious. THEN, i IRON the WHOLE hakama while it LAID ON THE FLOOR! Yes! I gave up on the BOARD and laid it on the FLOOR! =.=

Lucky i came out with this solution and everything went smoothly and neat!

Afterall everything.. Here's my END PRODUCT!

Daaa dAAAA!!

A nicely folded Blue Hakama(And this is the first time i folded it myself without any assistance. Hehe)

AND!

My nicely folded BLACK hakama! LOL!!

*Front*

*Back*

Actually, the 2 pictures is the same hakama. The first one is with flash and the 2nd one without. In actual, my hakama color should look like the 2nd one. Which looks almost like a black hakama. Joanna's hakama color is slightly lighter than me. I don't why i am so lucky to get a "black" hakama when i bought a BLUE hakama.

Slam!

2008-11-04T08:16:00.002+08:00

I ganna slammed! ganna slammed! my aikido instructor Cheen cheen slammed me out of the other girls from the same belt. All say because she see me buay song.. LOL!!

Anyway, you guys know what is slam?

a loud BANG! and you are landed on the floor!

That's a slam! haha

But the feeling really very shiok. not as pain as expected cause landed on a tatami mat. Hopefully i wont get slammed on a hard floor or it will be real pain and you might break your backbone if you didnt slam properly.

But really shiok! Out of a sudden, you landed on the floor fast and easy. Dont need to think how to roll properly away. haha

Next time, I WILL LEARN TO SLAM OTHERS!!!

I Love Neru tou!

2008-10-31T20:24:00.000+08:00

Neliel Tu Oderschvank (ネリエル・トゥ・オーデルシュヴァンク, Nerieru tou Oterusyuvaanku) from Bleach!

Business Logic

2008-10-29T00:11:00.001+08:00

Got this interesting and funny email.. Enjoy..

Father: I want you to marry a girl of my choice
Son: 'I will choose my own bride!'
Father: 'But the girl is Bill Gates's daughter.'
Son: 'Well, in that case...ok'

Next Father approaches Bill Gates.

Father: 'I have a husband for your daughter.'
Bill Gates: 'But my daughter is too young to marry!'
Father: 'But this young man is a vice-president of the World Bank.'
Bill Gates: 'Ah, in that case...ok'

Finally Father goes to see the president of the World Bank.

Father: 'I have a young man to be recommended as a vice-president. '
President: 'But I already have more vice- presidents than I need!'
Father: 'But this young man is Bill Gates's son-in-law.'
President: 'Ah, in that case...ok'

This is how business is done!!

Moral: Even If you have nothing, You can, get Anything. But your attitude
should be positive

Disaster: Day of Crisis WII

2008-10-22T00:17:00.005+08:00

My favourite game now.. halfway through the game.. So fun la! So cool.. With a series of natural disaster that you can experience with. Its like so real!

Trailer:

See all the series of disasters?

- Earthquake
- Land slide
- Volcanic Eruption
- Hurricane
- Flood
- Tsunami
- Storm
- and more la!

With all the "war" with the STORM, you experience weapon shooting. And you also need to go around rescuing as many people as possible cause you are once in the rescue team. Experience all the running/escaping and swimming with the nunchuk and wii remote! You will feel tired shaking here and there.. hahahaha.

That main character is really DAMN suay experiencing all these. Lol.. and you are the one playing him! So all the way in the game, you will like, WTH! What's all these shit!

Personal Rating: 8/10

Tagged by Huihui!

2008-10-16T21:22:00.003+08:00

Boring, so just do it! haha.. copy directly from huihui's blog!

1. Do you have secrets?
Of course, wanna know?

2. Would you fall in love with a boy younger than you?
Possible, as long as he acts like an adult. And of course with personalities that i like.

3. Do you enjoy going to school?
Depends. I would rather sleep at home. But if i could had fun with my friends/classmates in sch, why not?

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
Do whatever that i need to(e.g. contributing to the family, some to my friends/society when needed), then the one that i want(fulfilling myself and family with their wants). Of course i would want to buy a big bungalow and live together with my WHOLE family(my lifetime wish)!

5. Will you fall in love with your best friend?
Lol.. Of course not if its a girl!

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
loved by someone

7. List five favorite movies.
Comedy, horror, some singapore funny production, hong kong movie, some action thrilling hollywood movies bah

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
Bo bian lor.

9. Is there anything that has made you extremely happy?
Can't remember any now.

10. Do you have any regrets?
Of course, everyone sure have something they regretted

11. How would you see yourself in 10 years time?
Having my first million and become a SUPERINTENDENT in SPF! LOL!!

12. Who are currently the most important people to you?
My family(including yoyo!)

13. What kind of person do you think the person that tagged you is?
She is a crazy fun girl who always like to make fun of me.. but i love her as my family!

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
i rather be married to a rich family! wakakaka

15. What is your favourite colour?
blue, orange, black, green.... actually any colour other than pink and grey?.. LOL!

16. Would you give all in a relationship?
I don't mind f its needed. haha

17. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
the best one. LOLOL

18. What are the top five countries on your 'to-go' list?
Hong Kong, Japan, USA(enough to fill up the other 3) LOL.

19. Do you prefer being single or having a relationship?
It really depends. Currently happy with single life, but would want a true relationship.

20. Five people I have tagged:
Farhanah, Raymond, Joshua, Candy, Leann

Low Blood Pressure

2008-10-12T18:50:00.003+08:00

I started searching about low blood pressure after that tiring Aikido training in HQ at Toa Payoh yesterday(sat). I started training early 9am in the morning. Before that, i wasn't able to take any drinks or food + the room does not have air con, thus causing dehydration due to great lost of water but no water intake before the lost since 12-14hours ago.

And because of this, i started feeling damn dizzy and my sight is blur(also got abit of colourful checkerbox) . I can feel that if i take a move again, i will faint immediately. Thus i paused myself for awhile, until i regain my blurness. I request for a rest to the instructor and sit aside to rest. Sophia(my aikido mate) also rested with me as she also abit cannot tahan(we are used to the air con martial arts room in RP). We rested for 5-8min and go back to practise the next techniques as i feel slightly better. And after the next techniques, i started feeling unwell again. keep rocking and breakfalling here and there, its really very xin ku, but i still ta han abit. Until like 1 hour of the training later, the dizziness/blurness come back again, and i request to rest again. The instructor see me like dying liao, come and ask me how am i again. I explained that it might be because i didnt have any water before training and he ask me to go get some drinks, its okay to take a leave. At first i say "nvm. i still can take it" but i give in after he ask me to go the 3rd time.

I went to buy a bottle of 100plus from the office and feel much better and refreshed so i continue my training till the end after that. Joanna(another aikido mate from RP also) also rested 1 or 2 time during the training. I rested like 3 times. I was wondering like why others wont feel dizzy at all after the continuous rolling/breakfalling. Joanna says that she think she got low blood pressure, thats why she feel dizzy. Then i was wondering, do i have low blood pressure too? Thats why i went to check about low blood pressure.

Low Blood Pressure(also called Hypotension, just opposite of hypertension(high blood pressure))

Symptoms: lightheadedness, faintness or dizziness(when suddenly standing up or standing up from sitting or lying position), chest pain, shortness of breath, irregular heartbeat, fever higher than 38.3°C, headahce, stiff neck, severe upper back pain, cough with phlegm and more.

Causes: One of it is dehydration.

BUT!

Research says that Low blood pressure is good!

"Low blood pressure does not necessarily indicate poor health. Research has found that people who have a low blood pressure tend to live longer than those who experience hypertension. It's only when a person becomes ill or feels dizzy, that a drop in pressure becomes a problem.

People who have lower blood pressures have a lower risk of stroke, kidney disease, and heart disease. Athletes, people who exercise regularly, people who maintain ideal body weight, and non-smokers tend to have lower blood pressures. Therefore, low blood pressure is desirable as long as it is not low enough to cause symptoms and damage organs in the body"

Anyway, i already dio 70% of the symptoms that i mentioned above. Sometimes will have dizziness, chest pain, abit shortness of breath, stiff neck, and especially when getting up from sleep(lying position), totally blur in sight with checkerbox and will feel like falling(must hold on to something for a while until the blood flow properly).

After looking at the information about Hypotension, i am 70% confirm that i got this Low blood pressure already. Lucky not high blood pressure, if not damn jia lat. Anyway, i havent do any health check up since primary school. Anyone wanna sponsor me? hahahaha

Punggol Plaza trip!

2008-10-11T19:37:00.012+08:00

Participants: E-Ling(Sister), Amabel(Big baby), Aisleyne(baby), Annie(Maid), Huihui(Cousin), Weiqiang, Jaerio(baby), Meiqi, Ivan, Ethan(baby), Sereen, Zhiliang, Jonas(baby)! And of course, ME(camera-woman)! Location: Punggol Plaza Level 2, Baby Bath/Swimming Tub! Photos coming.....
More... Videos.... :

There are still more videos bigger in size and length which i am lazy to upload, so if want, tell me...

Self-Reflection

2008-10-10T08:23:00.003+08:00

I really need to do some self-reflection on my driving! i am getting more and more aggressive in driving.

Today i ganna horn on the way to school. Cause i trying to squeeze into a small gap between 2 cars, each on 1 lane. Dont understand?

i am on the 2nd lane going to turn left, so i want to keep left, but its already approaching the left turn. So i need to keep left as soon as possible. Then there was this Van in front of me(in 2nd lane too), and a car on the left lane(which is the one i want to change to.). We were all on steady speed at first, and the car was beside me, so i decided to speed up to go in front of the car at the left lane. But there's still a Van in front of me. If the Van go faster, there won't be a problem going through in front of the car. But the Van suddenly slow down cause its reaching the junction, when i am going through the gap between the car and the van. Thus making the gap even smaller, and making the car had to brake harder. But luckily there was no accident. I just heard the horn.

I know that i am in wrong. I can choose to slow down and go behind the car rather than the front. But dunno why, i just decide to speed up and dash all the way to his front. The more i drive now, the more agressive i turn. Like a typical gan chiong male driver liao.. Lol.. Everything i want to be fast Fast FAST!!.. But this is the first time i am so agressive and stupid in thinking. I used to slow down often to let the cars clear first(at least a gap big big enough) before changing.. Now ah... Die liao.. I better change this habit.

New Tagboard!

2008-10-02T19:43:00.003+08:00

Hey ppl! i had made my very own tagboard using our RP SIT server!

Of course i had decorated it to be nicer than the old cbox i used!

And it is much bigger!

Let's use it together! hehe..

Too bad, no smilies...

EDIT: i just realized that the tagboard viewed in IE has different interface(unorganized structure) from the view using firefox. So, PLEASE USE FIREFOX! hahahaha

Anyway, gotten my Blue belt in Aikido! 6th kyu finally!
Chionging for Blue Gold by this december le!

Surprised Celebration!

2008-09-25T19:34:00.002+08:00

Today, i received a surprise celebration from my beloved girls(except yiwen! huMph!). I really thought that my birthday was over and there wont be anyone caring about it! I was expecting a celebration from them on tuesday or even monday actually. But since i mentioned I don't want to celebrate, so i thought that they will just leave me alone. hahaha.

And today, i asked them if we were going down for lunch cause i was damn hungry! and they wanted me to meet them at one of the classroom in mishuelle's block. I still didnt suspect anything until i reach lvl 6 which i feel was so cold and empty! Then i suddenly recall, this is definitely not mishuelle's classroom!

And here goes the celebration after i stepped in the room. They are NOT YET prepared, AS USUAL! hahaha.. Its okay, the heart is there.

And thanks for the cake and presents! Really love them though i actually mentioned that i like ALMOND NUTS for my cake long ago! LOLOL!

And this Yiwen ah! She didnt come school, which makes me doubt that there will be any celebration going on for me, even more. And she request for a video call with me so that she can sing birthday song face to face with me. AND i thought that she is prepared and KNOWS how to use 3G video call! But end up taking time to figure it out, and still, didnt manage to use the video call function. End up, its just a pure birthday song. AND! it was an UNCLEAR birthday song! LOL.. Dont care ah...! must pay back! LOL..

Anyway, back to the present, i really love the sandals very much! Its the type that i wanted! and it is BLUE! one of my favourite colour(long-term, since young)! LOL! And that stupid shirt that i will force myself to wear! =x LOL..

*You guys know what? They bought me a T-Shirt with a BIG Volkswagen LOGO on it! OMG! At that moment, i was thinking : "How am i going to wear such a............ LAME T-Shirt"

I wanted a VOLKSWAGEN new beetle CAR! Not the LOGO only! Lol!

Still lots of thank GIRLS! I know that you guys wont just let me go pass my birthday without you all! Love you guys so much!

Happy! Lucky! Fortunate!

2008-09-24T00:43:00.002+08:00

Okay. Now is my birthday. Just came back from a gathering with W64K classmates at Cineleisure KBox cum having buffet there which cost only $28!

I am very happy and glad that i have such a group of nice friends! They didnt force me to do what i don't like! They make me have lots of fun and laughters through all the funny jokes and actions they had created. I have quite a good fill there with the buffet too!

fried rice, mussels, satays, mini cakes, few scopes of ice creams - its already quite a full deal already.

And thanks so much for the present! I love it very much! Its the best present that i ever got that really suits what i want and preferred...! I really thought that i should get a more mature wallet already and here comes the wallet as a gift.

A Braun Buffel wallet - which i assumes should be quite branded through the package and the "Since 1887 Germany" words along with the brand name. And of course, it should cost a bomb. Thanks ah! My first ever mature and branded wallet i have in my life! haha. Of course i will use it, and take good care of it. But i might rather keep it for now first until my current wallet goes more rotten. LOL.

And it is Orange! Which is one of my favourite colour recently also.

And the design is good and suitable for me!

Thanks so much again guys!

And just now, thanks to my 2nd brother, i am able to get a ride back home from Orchard. He makes an effort to drive from Jurong down to Cineleisure to fetch me, and lobang Jancis, her friend, and zen back home. After we sent them home, he passed me $200 and said that papa gives me. I was quite shock and damn happy la! And he said that papa wants to have a dinner at our coffee shop as my birthday celebration.

But i know that its my 2nd brother that inform and remind my father that my birthday is tml(24th september) thats why i would be able to get the troublesome ride. Thanks him too.

I am still suspecting if the $200 is from my father or from my brother. Lol...

Nevermind, most importantly, i am fortunate!

Oh ya, a special thanks to Jancis and Yvonne for carrying my laptop out from the box! If not my laptop will be gone! and my most happy and lucky day will turn to a worst bad day!

OMG!

2008-09-13T20:20:00.004+08:00

OMG! my last post was 1 month+ ago again! Really lazy to blog. And lazy to think what to write!

Currently not in a good mood to think la.. SIANzz..

Some update bah...

Year 2 Semester 2 le...

Posted to class W65G..

With new faces and new things to learn..

Birthday coming - 24th Sep - But dont feel like celebrating.

Cause to my family norm, birthday is just NOTHING!

I wanted a family birthday celebration! But i dont want to initiate like last year. So meaningless. But it is impossible since birthday is NOTHING to them! Though it has been a norm, but why can't I just be like a normal human having basic happiness in a family?

Forget it, i just dont want to hear anything about my birthday anymore.

Next, Aikido Grading on Sunday 21st September! Next grade is Blue Belt! At first aiming for a Blue Gold. Then my aikido senior Roger say what Blue Silver belt and say don't go for Blue Gold. Then i give up. Just give in my best on that day bah.

My niece No.2 from my dear sister - 1 month old tml! Congrats! Yi yi got no money to buy you present now! When i save enough money then buy for you! hehe! Will love and dote you just like i love and dote your jie jie Amabel!

Cheer dou!

Edited:
Toh Li Ling will be officially announced DEAD on the next aikido lesson on Monday.

Please donate some funeral fees to Blk XXX Jurong East Ave 1 #XX-XXXX S'pore 600XXX

More editted:

Went to Laser Quest at HometeamNS Bukit batok with the guys in W64K(Raymond, Kok heng, bao Kuang and Marcus)..

We played for 30min which cost us $10.50!!! it was $3.50 for every 10min. It was like so fast and the game has ended! I sweated till like hell cause i really "piah"(ping ming). LOL! Any way, Raymond wants me to put up the scoreboard i captured with our handphones on the tv. hahaha..

Wakakaka.. See kok heng's score? LOLOL!! he makes 700+ shots but hit NONE! lol..

Okay, i must clarified here that something goes wrong with his equipment, if not he will kill me!

I am 3rd among the guys! wakakkaka!

Pan and James パン君＆ジェームズ

2008-08-09T23:31:00.004+08:00

This is few of the video clips of the japanese popular chimpanzee and bulldog companionship, Pan and James パン君＆ジェームズ.

Video 1: Pan and James doing sit-up in a school with the kids.

Video 2: The Ring

Pan the Sadako - 貞子
Dont watch this if you have a weak heart. You wil either scare till death before the sadako comes out, or you will laugh till death watching the whole clip. hahahahaha!

I have the whole 2006 series(13 episodes) of this show: The Adventure of Pan and James from Taiwan in my computer actually. If friends are interested, can get from me, but dont ask me to send through msn or what ah.. haha.

Something i have been awaiting for.....!

2008-07-27T16:47:00.008+08:00

This is the trailer of the game i have been awaiting for, for my wii.

Fatal Frame: Mask Of The Lunar Eclipse - *Take Note: ITS HORROR! If you can, you watch, if not, please dont, before you blame me. Haha

Official Website: http://www.nintendo.co.jp/wii/r4zj/index.html

This is the part 4 of Fatal Frame aka Project Zero which is originally by PS1 and 2. But now it came out to be wii exclusive only. So, if you want this game, GET A WII!

Anyway, this game will be out on 31st July 2008 for Jap version. English version will not be out for the time being. TBA.

Other than this, i have been awaiting for Heart of Greed 2 Moonlight Resonance, 溏心風暴2之家好月圓 which will be showing in HK on 28th July 2008. Whole new story about a mooncake business rather than abalone. Same actors with different roles.

Official Website: http://drama.tvb.com/moonlightresonance/

I will catch and get them soon!!

Our "COOL" video clip!

2008-07-10T18:11:00.004+08:00

Today, our task is to create a short(30-45sec) video film with the theme = Invisible!

Jefferey came out with an idea of using something transparent in between of what we are filming but later reveal that there is actually this "invisible" transparent thing in between.

The story will be 2 man fighting in the classroom and the camera is outside shooting in through the door transparent glass panel. It will look as though the camera is shooting on the scene itself(inside the classroom), but in the end revealed that it is actually not! There is actually this INVISIBLE door in between.

Now, take a look at the video and you will get a real touch of what is going on...

And this was what happen! According to the storyboard, this classmate of mine is supposed to throw a cup on the glass panel rather than slamming the hand on and breaking the glass. Haha..

NO EDITTING! 100% original!

JULY 17th 2008

Our task today in Web Multimedia is to used back our previous lesson video, which is the one above and edit the video using window movie maker.

Take a look! Its damn funny and nice film!

Are you a left or right brainer?

2008-06-26T18:30:00.014+08:00

Brain Lateralization Test Results

Right Brain (42%) The right hemisphere is the visual, figurative, artistic, and intuitive side of the brain.
Left Brain (64%) The left hemisphere is the logical, articulate, assertive, and practical side of the brain

Are You Right or Left Brained?
personality tests by similarminds.com

I totally agree that i am a left brainer as ALL MY WHITE HAIRS GATHER ON MY LEFT HEAD! =.=

++++

Facebook user! please try this application: http://apps.facebook.com/braingame/

It is to test if you are using left or right brain.

It is a animation of a black female spinning. It is a matter of spinning clockwise or counterclockwise.

Go take a look and see if she is turning clockwise or anticlockwise.

Okay, i got that animation from facebook.. take a look at the picture below!

I am surprised that i heard different answer within my family...

Family/relatives:
Me: counterclockwise
boon tak(2nd bro): clockwise
xiao ai(2nd sis-in-law): counterclockwise
father: clockwise
mother: counterclockwise
bingbing: counterclockwise, see it going clockwise for certain moment

Friends:
farhanah: clockwise
raymond: clockwise
jeremy: clockwise
zen: clockwise
miaozhang: clockwise

More about left and right brain:

Left Brain:

Logical
Sequential
Rational
Analytical
Objective
Looks at parts

Right Brain:

Random
Intuitive
Holistic
Synthesizing
Subjective
Looks at wholes

Most individuals have a distinct preference for one of these styles of thinking. Some, however, are more whole-brained and equally adept at both modes. In general, schools tend to favor left-brain modes of thinking, while downplaying the right-brain ones. Left-brain scholastic subjects focus on logical thinking, analysis, and accuracy. Right-brained subjects, on the other hand, focus on aesthetics, feeling, and creativity.

Aikido 合気道

2008-06-10T04:16:00.002+08:00

I am back in Aikido! And i was back alone! Last year there's angela with me. But we are too slacked and end up not going after 2 lessons.. =.= Decided to join back alone recently cause i think angela wont join back along.

Thought that i will have no partners and friends there..

Lucky the aikidoka there are quite friendly!

Today i was a odd one out.. the other aikido mate willing to take turns and let me try out.. Thanks them so much!

How i hope that my friends could join aikido with me! Too bad none of them are interested.. Some say need money then dont want to join... =.= Sian......

New Update!

2008-05-19T21:52:00.005+08:00

Hi people! I think i really have to blog something out if not even my dear sis will forget about my blog!

But true speaking.. i dunno what to blog!? My life was as simple as a ..... human..? haha.. wake up, go sch, eat, bath, sleep, play com, watch drama shows.. Even if there are happening matters, i will forget it very soon or lazy to blog. I think i got Short term memory also.. So forgive me if i seldom blog cause whenever i blog, i will only blog interesting and happening stuffs. No point blogging simple and basic daily routine right? haha.

Anyway, there's something happening that make and angry and sad recently. I had already voiced out before.. maybe i should just paste what i wrote for you guys to see so i do not need to retype again.. haha.

Actually its about what happen in my lesson that i feel that my efforts are all wasted.

This is what i wrote for my Reflection Journal for the day when this happens....

Actually, I have something to say for today.

I am sorry that i did not actually able to answer you
what are the objects in my solution just because of that
first statement in the StudentMain class code. At first
i followed the codes from the example of car and laptops
and of course i know what are the objects and attributes
there. But i just dont know how to change it to array
form, thats why i asked you but you said that you will
tell me in meeting 3.

So, what i can do was to search around in the website
for the problem that i have and solutions but i couldnt
find any. So i can only just refer to our past array
methods to solve my solution. when i declare the
variables in the Student.java, i thought that the 5
students information are the objects as it is, and i
didnt know that just adding the Student Student = new
Student() will turn this Student to be the one and
only object. i put it just to try out if the whole code
will works. And it really works.

Okay, i know it's my mistake. But i didnt expect that
you just say that the work is not done by us or me. I
actually skip my breaks and screw my head into the
Eclipse and trying my best to work out the solutions,
typed them one by one by myself. And when you said that
i didnt do that code, it was like my whole 3 hours of
effort was down to the drain suddenly. At that moment, i
was angry and sad at the same time.

The whole team feel so sorry and unfair for me and what
i can do is to keep quiet and say never mind lah, its
okay. I tell you this just to let you know that i am
not that kind of person who steals people's work and
declare as mine or ours. Even if one of the team mates
do that, i will just do my own code and tell them to use
mine then i explain to them. I will rather submit our
half done work. The most, I will use other's for
reference, but not plagarising.

And these is what she commented on..

Thanks for sharing your honest thoughts with me - I really appreciate it.

I apologise if you felt disappointed and angry about what I said but I had a reason for saying it.

Yes, I can always see that you are a very sincere and motivated student who works very hard in each lesson.

I can also see that your understanding of codes and concepts is quite clear and strong.

However, when I saw the code, it seemed to be rather complex and from my past years' of experience the level of complexity of the codes seemed such that I wasn't too sure whether you had written them all by yourself. In fact, among the 175 or so students that I have facilitated so far, only 5 of them had the ability to come up with such complex codes - therefore, what I said was based on the fact that it didn't seem likely/ probable that someone could come up with such code so quickly.

I could however be wrong - and I admit that I might have underestimated your skills. So again, sorry about that.

At any rate, I could see that you had some understanding of the code you presented(even though it was partial) and that you took great pains to explain it to your team mates as well so that they could explain it to me.

I always applaud all your efforts in Java. Please remember that your efforts are not wasted and I hope you will not feel demoralised about this whole incident.

Looking forward to your best again during the next lesson :)

Penang Trip....

2008-02-10T22:23:00.002+08:00

3 Days 2 Night from 8th feb 8:05am flight(SQ192) to 10th feb 7:25pm flight(SQ595).

With Papa, Mama, and papa's friends...

Living in Evergreen Laurel Hotel, Level 14, room 1410. With sea view.

Used almost 500RM of my father's money only. He gave me 1000RM to spend...

Bought 2 Nike T-shirts, 1 SEED short, 2 cheap Cute T-shirt from Kek Lok Si stores stretch, and a addidas pant.

We eat and eat and eat.. i am going to turn fat..

Put fireworks but too bad didnt take pictures...

Taking plane is nice!

But Penang is.......ehhh........ mMhzz..... still not as good as SINGAPORE!

The Houses there are BIG and CHEAP! Should get one there for holiday! Lol..!

I've been tagged... And so are you!

2007-12-15T18:22:00.000+08:00

I've been tagged by Huihui my cousin.

5 Things I'm tagged for:

A. Found in my Room
2 single bed with a cupboard table without TV(just keep my 19" LCD TV) with a hi-fi set.
My clothing everywhere around. And i dont know why there are my eldest brother clothing still hanging around too.
And a cupboard with NONE OF MY CLOTHINGS! all are my sister's clothings and i do not know why there are johnnie's clothing too.

Is this really MY ROOM?

And, My personal cardboard box, with all my VCDs and DVD shows collection, my music cd collection, my education certificates and so. And some private stuffs..
And all my nintendo wii and ds, and HP boxes, i dont know why i still keep them.

B. I have always wanted to

Buy a CAR!
Buy a saxophone and learn to play some nice songs that i like.
Live together as a whole family in a big house!
Have a golden retriever or laborador!
Become a Police officer
Faster graduate and go out to work.
Get good grades!
Get more sleep!
Find a BF and Marry! haha
BECOME RICH!

C. Found in my Bag

Laptop with charger and battery
Wallet
Handphone
EZ-Link Card in the lanyard with card holder
Earpieces for laptop and HP
A Notebook but without a pen currently
My beloved Jacket!

D. Found in my Wallet

NRIC
POSB atm card
Car licence
Re:vantage card
MONEY!
Neoprints and photos
Aikido Shinju-kai dojo card
Louis Koo international Fan club membership card
and i still have my PDL(Provisional Driving Licence) in my wallet o.O
All kinds of receipt

E. I am currently into:

Watching HK drama shows
Moses Chan
Nintendo Wii
Saxophone

5 Candidates to Tag

Ange
Hazel
Bad
Candy
bingbing

Tagged friends > just copy and paste all the 5 questions then answer all the questions like a post in your own blog then go on to tag others! Happy Tagging!

Bad Hair Day (+ PMS?)

2007-12-06T20:13:00.000+08:00

Everything went smooth for me today until after school! A series of irritation happens to me ever since the CAP meeting.

First... During the CAP meeting. Smell someone's bad breath that makes me feel like vomitting and headache. I dont know who it comes from. Hopefully not mine? I dont think i have bad breath(and hopefully NOT). But that doesnt matter. And i ta han for 1hr of uncomfortableness.

Second... Sad to say, during the meeting, i misses a big chance for me to have contact with 'him' which i really wanted to have since it has been a long time after i last chatted with him. The chance was there, but i didnt dare to GRAB! Argh..

Thirdly... After the meeting, i went to buy bubble tea at W1 canteen. When i was queueing(the 2nd one, and yet to place order), a girl came through and ask if there is still a certain drink she wants. And then the girl just placed her order INDIRECTLY! Its then the vendor realised that i have yet to place an order then she asked for what i want. Then, i actually expect the vendor to make my order first before that girl's since i came first. But she make her order first before mine! And i had to wait longer!

Usually i wont be much agitated by this kind of small stuff la. But dunno why i feel so annoying at that time. Perhaps due to PMS? Then i just give some attitude face to the vendor to show that they are wrong! But dont think the vendors get it. haha..

Then when i go home, the bus took sooooooooo damnnnnnn lonnnnnngggggg to reach! 2 buses of 168 had already gone but the 187 still yet to come. And the queue was getting damn long then usual(but that doesnt matter since i am at the front of the queue! haha). I was getting quite piss off! I was thinking to myself: "if the bus is a long vehicle one, i shall not put too much blame on the bus service". End up, it cames a old idiotic 187 and the bus is full of URINE SMELL! OMG! then the whole journey i was covering my nose until i fall asleep. And i had to worry if i was SITTING ON THE URINE SEAT OR WHAT!

Then when i reach home. I found that my room has the smell of smoke! And the first thing that came to my mind is: "My damn idiotic father must have smoke in my room while enjoying the new 19" LCD TV he gave me!" I immediately shout to my mother and ask if my father really smoked in my room or not. But she say she wasnt sure of it.
If its true, i wonder what the hell my father was thinking! There was a fucking bigger 40" LCD TV at the living room and what's the rationale for watching NOT EVEN HALF THE SIZE OF THE 40" TV IN MY ROOM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!???????????????????

The next thing i do is, unplug the TV in my room, pack the TV set back to the box that i had yet to throw, and put the TV back to his room. If he want to smoke in my room, I RATHER HE TAKE BACK THE TV AND ENJOY HIS SMOKING AND TV IN HIS ROOM!!!! And then the next thing i do is spray a bottle of fragrant air spray to every little part the whole room. I just press and hold and scroll around the room and spray for 20 sec before releasing.

I think i am really having PMS.. Too agitated. I havent even confirm if my father really smoke in my room and i acted crazily. But hopefully these kind of things wont happen again..

2 Accidents in a Single Trip

2007-11-27T14:17:00.000+08:00

Have wanted to blog this incident down but no time…. Or I shall say, lazy… haha.
Okay… here is it.

It was a thrilling and heart thumping trip back from Lot 1 with one of my family member. Okay, me and her decided to drive my father’s car to Lot 1 during the mid November to exchange my guitar hero 3 guitar because there is something wrong with the whamping thing.

To be fair, I told her that I drove there since I am not very sure about the route and it will be difficult for her to drive there. Some more i am rushing to somewhere after that. And I will let her drive back so that at least, she will be familiarize with the route that I use before to Lot 1.

OK.. yea.. a safe journey to Lot 1 by me of course.. haha.. But the return journey was a scary one. We ALMOST got into 2 accidents within that 10min of return journey!

First Stage: She make a right bend turn at the traffic junction, at a high speed! Which makes the car having a wide turn, causing the vehicle at the side who is turning with us, horning at us. The side of my father’s car almost crash with the car on the left. WHEW! Its ok.. its not a very big mistake though.

Second Stage: we are suppose to make a right turn at the busy junction at jurong east(towards to bukit batok road/PIE/Jurong East Ave 1/Jurong town Hall Road). The traffic light was green on our side. But she had to wait for the oncoming car to clear first right? People who know what road should know that there are 2 right turning lanes. Our car was on the rightmost lane. There were cars on the left side of our lane too preparing to turn right.

(Our car came to a stop.)

She: Hey! He giving way to me right? (cause the car on the left lane stop at our left side. She thought that he want to let our car to move first. And there is still oncoming car from the front, but she still wanted to move on!)

(she start to move the car)

Me: NO NO NO NO!!! STOP!!

(Lucky she stop on time, if not the head of my father’s car will be gone also.)

My comment: I WONDER HOW SHE GET HER DRIVING LICENCE! THROUGH BRIBERY!?

Advice for TP tester: not ever let people pass the driving if their driving really cannot make it. If not, one day you will regret that you are being knocked down by your own candidates whom you let them passed.

I am not trying to say that I am very pro driver or what. I do have mistake sometimes. BUT these are really a big and serious mistakes that a driver shouldn’t make and WON’T MAKE since they are being taught in driving school.

Christian Name for me?

2007-11-12T23:28:00.000+08:00

Just now xiao ai(my sis-in-law) was choosing a christian name for herself which is close to her name Juan.. And i helped her to decide to get "Jane" since they sound close.

Then i start to think about getting a christian name for myself too. So i go around searching for a name that suit me. Then i found 2 that suit my likes.

i was thinking to choose according to the meaning i want. Which is "Peace". I found one which is called "Arina". Then i saw a name "Reilly" which means courageous/valiant. I like it too. I actually LOVE peace and i WANT to be courageous. Now, i actually dont know which one to choose.

*Chap-in* my fren gave me another choice, Orina, which also mean peace.

I actually prefer the Reilly. Cause it is abit close to my liling. and it is not as girly as Arina. I actually dont like my name liling cause it is quite common and GIRLY! so i dont want to get a girly name anymore. Anyway, Reilly is a Boy/Girl name in Gaelic, from Ireland. I forget what Arina origin from anyway.

But just, Help me decide! Lol!

But i think no one will call me by the christian name since they get used to Liling liling! hahaha...

My Blog's Rate

2007-11-01T22:14:00.000+08:00

Got this webby that rate your blog according to the presence of words..

My blog's Rate:

and it says that my blog is 1x hurt .. i think its trying to mean that it can be hurting? haha

Semester 2

2007-10-27T23:56:00.000+08:00

Okay.. i think i will blog for once again before i hear anymore complaints and before my blog become totally DEAD with no FANS! lol...

Its been 1 months+ after the start of semester 2. Quite happy with the new class. And i know that if i say this sentence, yiwen, farhanah mishuelle and thini will start saying "See! Now your new class better la!? Dont want us le la!?" lol..

So, usually when they ask about my class, i will say they are "ok ok" la.. To avoid all this arguments over jealousy. haha. But in fact, i am happy with the class! The classmates are really very friendly to me. we talk alot and play alot together. I am happy to be with them. But i wont forget you guys(Far,yiwen,mish,thin) my dear~, thats why i always join you guys for breaks. I wanted to spend more time with you guys too.

Usually i will try my best to finish my work fast so that i have time to join you guys in the break. But sometimes, you guys will be rushing over your work and cant make it for the breaks. Time management leh! manage your time so we can go for breaks everyday! If this continues, the bond will goes anytime soon... Why i can, but you guys cant? T.T

About my new class, GAME freaks! And they INFLUENCE ME!! lol.. CS gang! but still, i am still very concentrated in my work. They say that i am very serious in work.

There are actually class politics happening already.. Against a guy. But to me, i dunno what is POLITICS la.. i dun "dun like anyone", so its ok.. i will just work with it in the class like working in the society. Avoid unneccessary conflicts among the class la. Dont forget, i am a PEACE-MAKER! lol.. i love peace~ So i hope people dun make me angry and i dun make others angry.. I will do all my best to please everyone.. woot~ In my dictionary, Tolerance stand 40% of it. Peace stand 40% of it... tolerate for Peace.. ^.^V

Anyway, I really wanted to go for lunch with my new frenz, and wanted to go for lunch with my old frenz too.. And if i go with the old, the new will say me.. and if i go with the new, the old will say me.. So, i hope that i can be fair. Sometimes here, sometimes there, so that i wont lose any side of them. So, okay people? Dont jealous and scold me... haha.. i am fair! Currently i still spend more time with the old group lor.. So yiwen,far,mish,thin , dun jealous! wakakaka...

Even Mr Lenn also say, "You guys still sticking together ah!" ... lol.. actually this already lose the objective of class changing system in RP..

Took a Step Up!

2007-09-10T21:58:00.000+08:00

I finally know how to play 1/3 of *Canon In D* on my piano keyboard after 3/4 hours of struggling!

This whole page...

hehe.. Not smooth though.. Trying hard to play smoothly so that it should perfect and nice. Sometimes i had to pause awhile to recall what is the next step.. T.T haha.

Anyway.. you guys must be wondering since when i know how to play piano?

Since sec 1 or so, my father bought me a 2nd hand keyboard from my cousin huihui's father.. hehe.. For fun.. I actually hope to attend real piano lessons but i bet my father will say i waste money again.. =.= I am quite interested in learning piano actually..

*but now i am more interested in saxophone. hehe* Too bad, a saxophone can cost 1k+! So now, i can only play back my piano keyboard which i didnt touch for 1 or 2 years already.. Before i wipe it clean, it was actually very very dusty with webs! YUCKS!

I am not a pianist or so.. Had not attend any lesson. No one teaches me.. No money to learn T.T LOL

(only once when my secondary school mate Cheryl Hong taught me the simple version of *Fur elise* at her house, by memorising how she play.)

And i only know how to count the notes on the piano sheet, whether it is a "c" or d,e,f,g,a,b during primary school music lesson. LOL!

Then slowly, i done my own research and found out about the F#(sharp) C# or Eb(flat) Ab Bb notes on the sheet.. Actually there are more signs or whatever in piano sheet but i really know nuts about them. Never mind.. the basic will do.. haha

Anyway, last time i only know how to play with the right hand with alot of simple and easy songs.. Now, i can 2 hands! hehe.. trying hard to complete learning the song. And i can know how to play a song by looking at the piano sheet..!(last time i only know how to play by memorising how people play/which key they press and whats the next..)

Support me yea.. and i will play for you and teach you if you are interested.. LOL!

Okays... i go on and practise le.. must take another step up and to the top!

Strolling Around....

2007-09-05T21:50:00.000+08:00

mMhz... nothing to do.. Nothing to blog.. When around others' blog.. Reached farhanah's one and saw all the blogthing that reminds me!

*Remember the last time with a damn lots of blogthing tests!?

Farhanah must be copying me... LOL!

Anyway... most of the tests are somehow quite true la, and i hope that they are true too.. Anyway, i am back to addicting to them.. argh... here is it... *I will try to keep to the minimal~ hahahaha

What Your Soul Really Looks Like

You are a wanderer. You constantly long for a new adventure, challenge, or eve a completely different life.

You are a very grounded, responsible, and realistic person. People may not want to hear the truth from you, but they're going to get it.

You see yourself with pretty objective eyes. How you view yourself is almost exactly how other people view you.

Your near future is calm, relaxing, and pretty much what you want. And it's something you've been anticipating for a while now.

For you, love is all about caring and comfort. You couldn't fall in love with someone you didn't trust.

Inside the Room of Your Soul

Anyway, saturday 8th sep will be a big and troublesome day for me! Argh!

I wanted to attend my niece Amabel's birthday celebration! But i had to be responsible and commited to what i had promised to do! Which is helping out in ushering the VIP and Guest of Honour (Prof Low blah blah, our RP principal) for the Wind Symphony Concert from 7pm to 9pm+! T.T AMABELLLLLL!!!!! I dont care ah! I will rush down to my sister house after that no matter wad!!

Still have to wear formal, long sleeves white and black skirt! Was told that must look PRESENTABLE!! OBVIOUSLY MEANS MUST MAKE-UP LA!!! WAH KAO SUPER SIAN!!! i dont want make up la!!! i also dont know how to!! HOW HOW HOW!!!? heck care.. MIGHT NOT be making up.. T.T Hopefully wont get scolding..

Anyway... got my first semester overall GPA.. I expected to get at least 3.5 from start.. Guess what?? I GET 3.4!!! 0.1 difference! and it is actually a huge difference! 3.4 is = B, but 3.5 is = B+ !!! ok la.. quite good for me le.. at least it is still B.. if C i will damn sad.. haha~

OK la.. i post is always so long! My cousin huihui scold me liao.. She even dont feel like reading my posts liao.. haha.. SHE SAY ME! she ownself also write super long! =.=

View from more perspectives, Dont judge the book by its cover..

2007-08-27T00:12:00.000+08:00

Today is my father's 60th birthday. Firstly, happy birthday to him, hope he live well. We had the celebration in his coffee shop along with his friends, mama, boontiong boontak, jiejie, jiajia, johnnie, amabel and maid.. Same old thingy... eat eat chat chat.. shark fins,crabs,curry fish head, ha jiong gai(prawn paste chicken wing), some vegetables and so...

Then my father and his friends have a personal talk to him.. about his china wife and so... Then finally my turn... Scolding me for being lazy at home and so...

I know.. They are right man... I shouldnt be so lazy at home.. But they cant just judge me by my performance at home.. They just cant say and confirm that.. "liling.. you are a lazy girl, you should be more hardworking." Ok.. so.. What about me, outside?

I am more than confirmed that i am a very fortunate girl at home, slacking all around and my parents never ever restrict me on behaving like that. Maybe once in a while, they will just nag, but they will just leave me to be soon. Give me money to spend, and leave me to die or survive... I can say that i am super fortunate compared to many other kids at my age who are studying..

Normally, most of the students will be their best at home, being a good boy/girl, mummy's boy/girl.. helping out at home, following whatever rules.. Somehow like stressing themselves at home as their parents are very strict.. But who knows..? They MIGHT be all slackers in their studies, trying not to add more stresses to themselves.. And their parents wont be able to see these..

But i am opposite.. I am very slacker at home.. But i really want to tell my parents, i really try my best in my school work.. I dare to admit that i am super hardworking when i am in school.. I stressed myself a lot in school, thats why i dont want to add more stress to me AT HOME... Ya, people looking at my post might think that, why cant you just be hardworking at HOME and OUTSIDE..

Okay... i agree.. I will try.. but, my parents are really not strict.. At home, it is the parents' job to tell us what we should do, perhaps set a home rules and regulation from young, if you obey, you are a good girl, if you dont, you deserve punishment..(something like drama family.. and i love to live in this kind of family).. but it is too late.. it makes it a habit already..

I choose to be hardworking outside is because, we are surviving outside most of our time. We cant just laze around outside treating them like your home. In the society, your parents are not there for you.. Including school too.. Schooling/studies is the first step for you to step out to the society, we cant just laze around.. It will affect my future.. thats is why i rather choose to work hard in school and most probably my future workforce, than working hard at home(which only my parents will see and recognise my hardwork... haha).. But of course, hopefully i can try to achieve both side..

Can you see my white hair?? getting more and more.. STRESS!!! i might not be stress at home.. But can you see my overall stresses? The feeling of... "hey liling.. you got white hair, want me pluck for you?" SUCKS! then i will have to entertain them and say.. "ahhh.. dont need dont need.. use scissor cut better, if pluck will have more".. (anyway.. dont know who told me this about plucking white hair will have more.. cut better..! ITS BULLSHIT LA!.. i use scissor cut, still will gain more white hair..) I think now i got around 6 or 8 white hair le.. Still got 1 white hair hiding behind which i dont even know.. and had to wait for someone to tell me.. GOSH! Maybe got more hiding behind! Sad.. everyday had to try my best to hide them by cutting them to the shortest possible.. Argh..

Anyway.. my father just now talk about his inheritance.. Saying that those who are hardworking get more... those who are not get nothing.. I can tell you.. I dont care about how much money i will have in the future.. I only care about now.. Even if you say this to me, i wont purposely go and work hard at home to show you that I AM HARDWORKING, which seems like i only become hardworking just for your inheritance.. I just want to leave my life happy.. And, you might keep telling me to think of ways to earn big money.. think of what businesses to do.. I hope that you will see this sentence.. "I want to become a police.. Even though i will only earn $2000 or lesser, I still want to be a police.. I am only interested in it.. Dont say that i have not plan about my future.. I already planned.. its just that i dont want to make you angry when i tell you, i plan to be a police.. Okay??"

Thats all... bye bye..

Chat in Coffee Shop

2007-08-18T03:41:00.000+08:00

Just now while waiting for my father to go home with me at his coffee shop, we had a nice chat along with my father's friends..

Actually intended to go home at 12am+, but in the end, we left at 2am+... Usually i will rush him to go home as soon as possible as the atmosphere sucks with all the smoke smoking around me.. but why i didnt rush him and stay till 2am+?

Here's the reason... Chatting with the bunch of middle-age man is quite fun... hehe..
1)I get to know more about my father..
2)They like to talk money..
3)They(my father's friends) like to help me in persuading him to fulfil my wishes.. haha..
4)They like to talk politics and teach me how to handle them.
5)My father will force me to plan on my future..(And he will only talk about businesses.. But i am only aspired to be a police officer T.T)
6)They teaches me a lot of philosophies(which i already know.. =.=)
7)They will make fun of each other.
8)My father will praise me on my driving skills when they talk about cars and driving. hahaha..

Anyway.. Just now.. at the first 1 hour of the conversation.. it was quite fun as they are talking about buying private property like condo..(as requested by my sis.. LOL! I neutral! just helping!). And my father talk a lot, saying that youngster nowadays preferred condo due to the swimming pools, whereas he thinks that it is stupid and blah blah.. He preferred to buy landed property more than condo.. Of course i raise my hand and AGREE! haha.. Sorry jie jie.. You bring amabel go public swimming pool la!

Then my father's friends psycho my father to buy me a car.. I suggest to buy volkswagen new beetle cabriolet of course! But they suggest him to buy me a mini cooper.. lol.. Whatever.. to me, just a simple car is more than enough for now.. If want for better, learn to earn more money first..!

My father will always be the one nagging at me.. saying me always spend a lot of his money... Complaining about my handphone bill which cost only $30+ a month! =.= Whereas my mother help to pay for my SCV cabletv costing $50+ and giving me pocket money of $10 everyday yet SHE DIDNT NAG AS MUCH! haha..

They also say till like my father was very rich yet i think that they are bullshitting, so i didnt put too much hope in it.. Lol.. My father's friends will also keep psycho-ing my father to give me more money.. $200k, $300k straight.. invest on me first..

Then my father say he scare that after he give us(his 4 children) the money, we just leave him to death or throw him into the old folks home.. lol.. Do we look like that kind of people??? haha.. Then if he keep the money first, he will see who is the one who visit him more often and he will give accordingly..! LOL!.. Then my father's friends also very funny... Their reply was..: What if you got dementia(lao ren chi dai zheng), and the one who visit you most often, you say he/she didnt visit you at all? LOL!! We laugh until stomach pain!!

Then they suddenly talk about inheritance.. They say that my father is time to set his inheritage le.. My father laugh laugh and say i wont be getting any.. Starting i was... o.O then i calm down and say.. nvm.. i still got my future husband! lol.. (I know you will give one la! I am a good girl! haha..) True speaking.. I never mind about how much he going to give me in the future or even nothing.. In this case, i will care about what i have now in the present. This kind of heritage thingy, let it be whatever it is.. Heck care for now..

They will then talk to me about school.. My father was still assuming that i already started to learn about business stuffs like marketing,finance, accounting or so..(which i only will do in year 3).. I explained to him many times le but he..... argh... lazy to repeat.. Actually i did la.. Enterprise Skill.. LOL! But i only learnt how to be a good employees and employers.. lol.. He keep asking me to plan ahead and think of what business to do.. I really dont know what business to do.. then he teach me all the blah blah blah about business.. I wanted to tell him that i wanted to become a police.. but i scare he say that i am stupid again! Police can earn how much!? or so....~ Argh! Anyway.. My father not bad wor.. 白手起家.. Start from bit..

Too.. i heard a lot of compliments on my father and mother...
Father - He is a very good and clever person.. But the money in the pocket is always very little! lol..
Mother - She is the most good and diligent mother in the world without complaining.

Then they will ask me to help and do more housework.. to reduce my mother's workload.. Too bad.. i am lazy AT HOME ONLY.. haha..

And talking about laziness.. My father will change the target very fast to the laziness woman she ever know in the world who is living at my home, as my 2nd bro's wife! Talking about her... My father will feel very agitated. He vent his anger on my 2nd sister-in-law ON ME!! What i can do is just listen and oh oh oh.. WTH! YOU TELL ME AND NAG AT ME ALSO USELESS RIGHT!? You should talk all this to her! =.=

I got a feeling that sooner or later.. there will be home politics... PAPA-MAMA VS TAK-AI! My parents are always against this china girl..(Oops.. my 2nd sis-in-law actually). She was super lazy and always hiding herself in the room.. For almost a few months then xiao ai will talk to my father BY CHANCE, even though they see each other almost everyday. Not even a Hi, or good morning when they wake up.. Each of them have their own reasons.. but i feel that my parents' reason are more convincible.. So .. sorry xiao ai.. cant help..

On 26th August, my father's 60th birthday.. I will be organising a "gathering", as suggested from my father's friends, to had a talk with my SPINELESS 2nd brother regarding his lazy bummy wife.. So the main objective is to have a close talk, rather than celebrating my father's birthday... =x (Usually among our family, we dont celebrate each other's birthday de la..) My father's always tried to talk to my bro, but my bro was useless.. come in from left ear, go out from right.. too bad.. SPINELESS! Cant blame.. My brother is actually a good guy.. hardworking.. diligent.. but his wife was the dominant one..

Things are getting more and more serious so my father had to really talk to him.. If there is still no changes made, bye bye! there goes my 2nd sister-in-law..

Now then i actually know that my father actually advice my brother not to ROM so early.. But they did it "SECRETLY"!! Somehow la.. cause part of my family was there afterall.. haha..

My father want to brainwash me.. He keep telling me that this woman... not easy ah.. and blah blah blah.. Actually i know la.. I sometimes will also listen to her side of story.. She has her own reason too.. She is stupid.. She thought Singapore politics is the same as China.. Anyway, just being neutral.. She talk to me i talk to her lor... Actually we not very close also.. We once quarrelled before too.. I HONKED her out of my room cause i was angry with her.. LOL..

This is the part where i feel very sian.. Keep talking about her to me which they should not.. I think talk about this for 1hour.. =.=

I think this post is already super long.. Cause i have been typing non stop for almost 1hour... I shall stop here.. hehe

Disappointment....

2007-08-17T17:52:00.000+08:00

Did i hear it wrongly just now? What did the Garnesh say??

Please... dont... Dont let it be true...!

Why? why do you take away my only chance of seeing him?

Why do you disappoint me once again and again?

First is when he leave the class.. I really feel like crying... But i still give myself hope that i still have chance to see him in cap... Dont worry.. we still get to meet almost once a week...

Now.. you take away this chance..! Why do he had to leave cap.. i really cant stand.. i really feel like crying.. I got totally no mood.. Can i cry? Should i cry in front of them? I can't! I told myself that i should not ever cry in front of any one else. What i can do is controlling my tears..

The moment i think of what that faci say.... "***** and (another faci) has tight schedule and might not be able to continue to stay with us....." my tears want to rush out.. I controlled it! ok... relax... and just again 10 or 20 sec later when i think of it again..."he will be leaving... i cant see him anymore! Really no more! He is not in my class! Not in my IG!"... my tears want to rush out again.. And again and again.. i control and control..

I really dont want them to ask... "hey. what happened? why you so sian... say lehz.." and whatever.. Its difficult to answer and shed tears in front of them.. All i can say is... nothing .. nothing... and treat it as nothing happened..

Gladly, i am occupied by chats, and the games, and i wont think much.. But can i be occupied every moment..?

Just now when i was on my way to my sister's house.. i start thinking again... again the same thing... controlling my tears.. this time, in the mrt with a lot of people.. but the amount of tears spinning around my eyeball became more.. it dripped one drop.. and i had to act as if my eye's is itchy and keep blinking my eyes.

Can it not be true? Can he dont leave.. RP is not very big... but meeting this one guy is not easy too... If there are no cap meetings.. i can only managed to see him once every few months, coincidentally.. No fate? Hopefully not please.. Let fate decide? Then i think its more impossible.. the god play me on purpose.. hurt me once and once..

I just want to see him more... why cant you fulfil my wish?? Just this one small wish... So simple and you cant?

I will go for the next meeting... If it is confirm that he is really leaving.. i am going to quit for sure.. i originally have no interest on cap too.. staying there without him is meaningless.. waste of time.. I put in so much effort in cap previously just hoping to get closer to him.. But it end up this way...

FED UP!

A new nice song! LOL!

2007-08-14T20:03:00.000+08:00

对别人来说这有点荒唐
不信不信你真的爱他
一个七十一个八十
我能接受但他能吗

对他的感觉对他的思念
就连他也未知未知
不知所言想让他知
得知后不知他会怎么想

真的真的爱上他
很想很想天天见他
见他背影越缩越小
挂住的感觉是越来越大

见他的机会不是常有
唯有天天思念着他
一有机会就去见他
一见他就心痒痒

紧张紧张真紧张
小鹿小鹿乱乱闯
我们走吧走吧
别离时候又是伤心收场

尽量尽量协助他
减轻他的压力烦恼
希望希望他能知道
I'm always willing to help

*This "new" song shows out my true feeling from heart... Haiz... I fall too deeply..

Crazy Trips for Today!

2007-08-10T19:44:00.000+08:00

Actually, there is school today. But it was our self-proclaimed holiday. LOL.
Yiwen is stressing about how to escape from her mother's hand yesterday, (cant let her mother know that she wont be going to sch today), whereas my mother was super funny and blur about whether i have school today or not..

Here is our conversation yesterday...:

Mama: Hey.. you tml got sch ma?
Me: mMh...(diam diam)
Mama: I think is dont have de la..
Me: Ehh... GOT! Got school! (Being sarcastic)
Mama: Aiya.. You dont bluff la! must be no sch tomorrow la!

I already told her that there is sch tml...(i just didnt tell her that "but i am not going") but she does not believe me.. Since she assume that there is no sch today for me.. then i will just let it be.. Wakakaka..! HOLIDAY!

TODAY:

Wake up today at 10+am then leave home for the movie "Alone" with yiwen, farhanah, nanthini, sebastien, mishuelle and lucas..

then after the movie around 3:15pm, i made a trip back to school to help out in CAP as no one from the team can make it. I can choose not to go and enjoy my holiday with my dear friends.. But, if there is no one to help him out.. he will be angry and feel stressed.. So i will just sacrify and make a trip down to help him...

My friends ask me not to go la.. (they love me so much that they want me to stay so much.. haha).. But sorry ah... i already promised to go.. He very stress le.. Only 1 person go.. Sebastien will understand me.. haha..

I will try to pay back the next outing.. haha.. accompany you guys longer!

Anyway.. Never regret my decision... did all this just to have a glance of him.. haha

then i head down to tiong bahru from woodland.. Take the mrt on the red line to jurong east(feel like going home).. but still continue my journey on the green line to tiong bahru, my sis house..

going to watch 881 later, 9:20pm show at marina square, with meiqi and ivan too.. Too bad, huihui,weiqiang,sereen and zhiliang are not going. Actually i told myself that 881 seems like a sucky show.. i will not watch...! But end up.. i am watching later.. =.=

Now nothing to do.. waiting for my sister and her hubby to set off to marina square.. Then maybe shopping around.. go back to my sis house and wait for my father to fetch me back to jurong. =.=

So my trip for today was like:

Jurong East -> Somerset -> Woodland -> Jurong East -> Tiong Bahru -> Marina Square -> Tiong Bahru -> Jurong East

CRAZYYYYY!!! First time for me to go here and there so many times within a day..!

Spider Pig~ Spider Pig~

2007-08-02T20:03:00.000+08:00

Spider pig
Spider pig
Does whatever a spider pig does
Can he swing
From a web
No he can’t
He’s a pig
Look Out
He is a spider pig

Feel free to sing this song throughout the day!

Philosophies...

2007-07-24T01:36:00.000+08:00

Just finished chatting with yiwen after something unpredictable happened to our friend.

We keep saying saying why this kind of things happened and may be blaming here and there at some moment, but we have to learn how to encounter problems and unexpected event when experiencing them the first time.

We had the longest conversation ever and i find them very meaningful.

I may have said alot of meaningful sentences and philosophies but it is like the chinese idioms 說一套做一套，and 說得容易做的難
- which means, saying this, doing that
- its easy to say, but difficult to do it.

So i decide to keep track of whatever i had mentioned and remind myself everytime i encounter life problems...

White font will be words from yiwen to me.. Blue will be mine to her..

The conversation goes like this..(halfway through actually):

like u say, treasure every moment

yea

people tends to take things for granted. till the day when they really lost, is the day when they really regret n hoped that they could turn back Time. it happens to everyone..

yea... its like this la. i always tend to regret. but cant blame anyone also

i also. but why like that?

dunno la. i also heck care de.. just live my own life.. as long as possible.. i can control how i live.. but i cant control how long i live

ya..but seriously the world is changing. everything. i m getting so tired of all these.

the world is like this all way long.. it is just that you have yet to experience it...cant really blame it though.

maybe u are rite.. i m too shallow..i have yet to find out all these. i have been living in my comfort zone, not knowing the real world..

yea.. you will slowly face even more.. just shun qi zhi ran. and... dont think of suicide which i think is stupid. Should counter it and not escape from it. true speaking.. you cant always cry about small matter.. you must learn to be strong and not let others worry about you..

i tried

i know you are still young.. i not want you to change and learn now.. but should think of starting it

seriously, i dunno who is the real yiwen. the one that is at home or in sch.. i cant find the path in my life..

slowly and slowly step out to the world.

in home and in sch is usually different. cause the surrounding is different.. you must fit to the surrounding. if you are a da xiao jie at home.. you cant do the same outside to your friends or others. i am talking about myself ah.. haha. i dunno how you are at home. but i know that i must learn to fit to the surrounding..

ya..i agree too. but is that being real?

not really.. cause you are learning to change yourself too.. if its too hard for you to change.. you can just leave it.. but when problem came.. you had to find other way to resolve it.

for me.. i will tend to think more long term.. i dun wan to have a last min problem.. and in the end, having more difficulties countering it. but at home, i be myself, cause i know that my parent will always be there to help me..

but friends.. true speaking... i dun think there is life time friends.. they are confirm not as close as parent..

defintely

if you ganna kidnapped, and need ransom, your friends will be the one paying or your parent? your parent will of cox be the more willing one to sacrify.. even life

and if you wan friends to treat you good, you have to treat them better and respect them better too..

End of Conversation

*You can control how you live your life, but you cant control how long you live! Just live your life to fullness!

*Treasure your time, grab every chances. Do whatever you like which is right and dont regret!

If you have problems and need help, you can approach me.. i can try my best to listen to your problem and console you.. Dont forget, i am a harmonious and peacemaker! hehe..

Curious of where i know so much of philosophies? WATCH TV LA! =.=

Anyway.. people tend to say, "dont keep slacking at home watching TV leh! You cant learn anything outside the world" But do you actually know that TV programmes and even Drama teaches people a lot of things?

My parent dont have the time to teach me how to be a true human being, they always work and work and thinks of earning money to support me, but they didnt put in heart to teach me philosophies and just throw me to my grandmother and the sch.. School all follow books.. but books are dead.. humans are alive.. concept can be changed over time.. School doesnt really teach much.. Thats why teenagers turn bad as they do not know how to solve and encounter problems. They only think the negative side..

But TV teaches us a lot of philosophies and ideas.. with all the updated news and information about life.. News report or latest drama.. even information passed down from previous generation.

So please... you guys cant totally say that watching TV is waste of time.

If its not TV.. i will be one of the ah lian out there in the world, smoking and making troubles already..

Happy Saturday BBQ

2007-07-23T21:15:00.000+08:00

Saturday 21st July 2007, we have a happy and fun and FULL BBQ gathering at Hougang Green (meiqi and ivan house).

Participates: Jiejie, dear amabel(my sis daughter),huihui(cousin) & weiqiang(future cousin in law), sereen(sis fren) & zhiliang(her husband) and of course meiqi(my NIECE) & Ivan(NIECE0-in-law)! hahaha.. Oh ya.. Meiqi's mama was there too to join in the fun!

At first, my planning was to ask my father to fetch me to tiong bahru first since he work there and can drop me at my sis house at boon tiong road so that i can go along with my sis. So i told my planning to my father and he agree with it.

Huihui and I want to see amabel's swimming so much, but weiqiang only can go to the gathering after his work at 6pm, but by that time, amabel wont be able to swim(my sis say so.. dun really know why also). So i suggest huihui to take my father's car straight to hougang at 3pm and i will beg my father to fetch us there since huihui lives quite near my house. Anyway, I assume that my father agree with that since he ask for the exact address of meiqi's place. haha.

So i set alarm at 1pm.

OMG! when i woke up, my father was already preparing to leave house for work! He say he need to go tiong bahru market earlier to buy crabs for the seafood! I faster stopped him! I say you promised me to fetch me and huihui to hougang lor! then he abit buay song.. he say faster faster i want to go liao. Then i faster call huihui and tell her about this.. SHE IS IN BUKIT BATOK(Weiqiang's house)! I use my thick skin and ask my father if he can go to bukit batok to fetch huihui.. Think he gave huihui's face and agree with it.. Thanks God! Papa is so good and understanding despite the rush! hahaha. I ask huihui faster pack and get ready.

On the way to hougang, my father keep asking me to check the map.. i am totally blurred! Huihui also not sure how to see map. Huihui say my father super funny, take the expressway to PIE(TUAS), which passes woodland.. then go to SLE(CTE), which is a long way! But my father say this way is not that jammed. But when we reach the exit to SLE(CTE), there was a BIG jam! So my father took the alternative way through woodland ave 3 to the other SLE(CTE) entrance.

My father very hiong ah! There was 2 big POLICE truck in front of him and he use the one straight way lane to TURN RIGHT and overtake the 2 police trucks! I feel like shouting out to him! lol.. CRAZY AH! Committing crime in front of 2 Police Trucks..! lol.. And didnt get caught! *Clap hand*!

When we reach there.. I faster take out my wii console(Requested by sereen to bring it for her to play) and test if it is working as before leaving the house, i accidentally dropped the console on the floor T.T Luckily it still works.

We went down to the swimming pool to swim.. My sis didnt want to let amabel swim at first because it just finish raining and the pool may not be suitable for baby with regard to the cold temperature and 'acidic' rain. But in the end, amabel was so enthu to jump down into the pool after kicking the water in the pool, and my sis let her swim.. SHE WAS SO DAMN HAPPY!! Keep smiling and smiling!

Anyway... here comes the food..

before the bbq start, me and huihui and meiqi had already eaten a bowl of bee hoon, and french fries and a big cup of bubble teas. And 3 hours later, we ate again. The BBQ include Chicken wings, nuggets, sweet potatoes, sweet corns, sausages, crab meat, and more.. We also ordered 2 large pizza curry chicken and hawaiian and 12 pcs sweet n spicy drumlets. Super full liao!

Still got.... after we went up to the house.. Theres still fruits and TIRAMISU Cake and Chocolate chips ice-cream! I tell myself, this time die liao! Confirm gain weight! Argh...

I think they love to play my nintendo Wii so much also... Played the wii sports! Ivan played the Golf, we challenged the bowling.. meiqi hui hui and meiqi mama played the boxing too.. Weiqiang loves to play tennis and bowling i think.

Sereen ask me to bring but didnt play much! hahaha..

Then they ask me to demostrate the crayon shinchan mini games! Know what! the next day after i wake up, my leg muscles are aching! because of the jumpings!

Today when i go to school, i had a feeling that my leg muscles will cramp anytime if i walk abit faster or run! Dont know when will recover.. T.T

Guess everyone had alot of fun challenging the wii games with me.. Glad to see you guys enjoy in the gathering.. Hope there's more coming..

Anyway.. JIE JIE! I NEED YOUR HOUSE MASSAGE CHAIR AH! MY MUSCLES PAIN! Dont worry.. i will go your house every friday to massage! lol..

OH YA! After all these.. the worse thing happens!! MY FATHER BOUGHT BLACK PEPPER CRABS AND FRIED SALTED FISH RICE (MY FAVOURITEEEEEEESSSSS!!!).. IDIOT SIA! I am so full alreadyyyyy!!! T.T End up i didnt take any bite of them! !@&^%#!*&#^!@*

T.T

Happy to Announce my long awaited 'A' for Communication Module! Hahaha

2007-07-23T20:11:00.000+08:00

Theres story that goes on with my grades...

Firstly i will talk about communication...

I had never gotten an A for communication.. And see that first UT grade!!!? F!!! traumatise! My other first UT grades are B+ B B C!
Theres reason behind it though.. I am not on form for communication lesson due to some circumstance... People may think that i dont have much confidence when presenting.. But the true is, my confidence are all SUCKED away.. haha..

But after he left... Da da.. finally an 'A'.. and all the good comments coming out.. wakakaka..

Anyway, YA! i am blaming him somehow! haha.. but i still hope that he can come back....

Wanna see my Basic Sciences Grades? The worse and mess-iest of all! lol.. At least comm very consistence.. haha..

Reason: Know nuts about it.. haha.. No much interest in sciences.. but i do try my best to understand.. Try my best to keep motivated to solving the problem and be committed to my work.. hehe.. Thats why at least got 2 'A's.. haha..

Never mind of these sucky grades.. cause all can be covered by my best module.. wakakaka..

Is karen too lenient in grading? Or she fall in love with me? lol! joking joking bhb
But really thanks her very much for recognising my hard work.. I really put in a lot of hard work in all my modules and she is the only one who realised it.. Love you!

Enterprise and Cognitive problem solving normal normal grade bah.. enterprise only 2 'A's too.. mostly B.. got 1 or 2 Cs also.. CPS got 7 'A's quite good le.. lucky no C. Thanks Mr.A also for recognizing my hard work.

*wondering if he will see my blog? if got then die!

6 Weird things about myself (Copyright:from Rafiq blog)

2007-07-22T02:25:00.000+08:00

lol.. saw from rafiq blog talking about 6 weird things about himself..

it goes like this...

1)I find people wearing white shirts amusing
2)Talking to ones self is perfectly ok!. It shows that you are always not alone
3)Watching people in pain sometimes makes me laugh
4)Making weird sounds are cool
5)love to smell all kinds of object
6)Likes to imagine things, for example imagine that i have super powers O_o

hahahha.. dont worry la rafiq.. not very weird.. Sometimes i also do what you did.. lol..

Anyway.. my turn..

1)Same as rafiq.. totally love to imagine things.. eg, having super power, can fly, can fight very well or so.. And also.. ganna injuries, and alot of blood rush out of my body.. eg, ganna knife stab or gun shot.. LOL! pain.. but very cool! lol.. And also imagine me in the scene of the drama shows i had watched as one of the actress.. Interesting..

2)I always want to try seeing disgusting things, like corpses or accident happening, those blood splashing out or so.. lol... like abit bian tai(pervert) hoh? Just try try and see how disgusting is it..

3)I idolise middle-age or even old people who are good looking.. My idol(from hong kong) - Michael Miu(Age 48, male) and Michelle Yim(Age 51,female).. Lol.. Normal people sure prefer 20+ 30+ the most 40.. think 1 out of 10 will prefer 40 50+ at my age of 18,19..

4)I prefer guy who are serious in work and will have commitment in things they do.. Work hard and earn money to support me! lol.. Knows when to be quiet, and when to entertain me. Dont over active or crazy crazy.. (i think normal girls at my age will like fun and childish guy.. as long as they are fun to be with, thats ok.. But they did not think long term..*puppy love* haha)

5)I also want to try admitting to hospital due to serious illness.. But i dont want to suffer or die.. Lol..

6)I always hope someone can shoot me with pistol or stab me with knife to try how pain it is and how long i can ta han.. and will i cry? hahahah..

After knowing how weird i am.. please dont be scare of me and distance me.. =x I am still somehow a normal girl.. actually still got more la.. 6 is enough.. Dont worry guys.. i wont do anything to you all.. And please dont be stupid and take a knife to stab me.. although i asked for it, i MAY still sue you.. haha..

Rafiq.. Am i more weird than you? Lol..

At least i know that all these are weird.. if i find that this are normal.. you guys better be careful or me.. lol..

Oh ya.. Tag me the rating of the weird-ness level of the 6 weird things ranging from 1-10 when you have the time.. Lol.. Example if you think that you have this problem also.. then give lower rating.. If you think its totally weird and abnormal, give higher rating.. haha

in this format:
1)*rating no.* 2)*rating no.*...

I feel like rating mine also..

1)5
2)8
3)6
4)4
5)6
6)8

wakakaka.. i am bo liao and crazy.. =.=

Do people breathe through ears? Lol

2007-07-20T19:28:00.000+08:00

Do people breathe through ears too? Lol.. stupid question?

but i am just wondering why.. when i am in the mrt, listening to music with my sony mp3 handphone, whereby the earpiece is the "stud-form" which totally covers the ear hole.. my lungs start to feel 悶 (abit tight?) and start to have abit of breathing difficulty.

Sian sia.. almost everytime. So i think, is it because i wear ear piece thats why the lesser air can go in and out,(from my ears)??? haha.. do ears breathe in air??

mMhz.. should do a PDT and PPT on this problem. *wait long long ah!*

I tried taking out one side of the earpiece just now, still abit breathing difficulty.

Or is it the train speed which my lungs cannot ta han? but impossible la.. i take roller coaster also wont feel like this.

Actually this problem has been a very long time, perhaps since 1 or 2 years ago.

Actually i had think of having full body checkup. but very expensive right? $200+ sia.. I tell my mother to sponsor me, she say: dont need la.. i also so long didnt do body checkup, nothing one la.. see la.. everyday anyhow eat, blame yourself..

Is this what a mother should answer? haha.. actually i had raise this issue before i think.. never mind, stop here.

Actually i am very concern of my health. But lazy... I also scare to have sickness like cancer or diabetes or what.. I dont want to die so fast. Especially cancer.. When i happened to inhale cigarette smoke, i very scare one.. i really scare that if i inhale more, i will have cancer. especially those 2nd hand smoke which can have great impact on inhaler. And if really dio, will be very innocent one lor. Also didnt smoke, then dio cancer.. i rather smoke from the start.

Thinking of this is very scary.. somemore smoke, so smelly.. blahh.. urgh..

I DONT WANT TO DIE SO EARLY! I havent experience a lot of things! I haven marry, haven give birth.. haven become police... haven dio 4D.. And most importantly, I haven confess my love to him!! haven have my own car..!! and a lot a lot more lor..

Anyone can sponsor me to full-body check up!? Check with me also! hehehhehe...

Off-topic:

Anyway.. got to see him yesterday on thursday. More daring to chat with him... We laugh and joke together... He said that last time a lot of girls wrote him love letter but now old le.. no value.. no people write.. hahaha..

Actually i dont like him to keep saying that he is old.. He is not... my 2 elder brother is even older than him.. He doesnt even hit 3*.. even if it's so.. still not old wad.. should use that word *Adult*! haha..

When he say he is old.. i feel so "gap-ped" with him.. Cause of my look.. but actually i am already 19 in sep.. I am OLD.. no la.. i am a semi-grownup already.. semi-adult.. haha

Pessimism? - Trying to be optimistic still...

2007-07-15T03:46:00.000+08:00

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......... He is online now.............
I dont dare to talk or chat with him......
In school, i dont dare to look directly at him...
The feel of struggling is so tough..
Why do God made me fall for him...?

Just went through his photo album website with 800+ photos which took me almost 2 hours. Can see his sweet smile with his bunch of friends.. How i hope i can be one of his true good friends for now. At least it may be easier for him to know my good points.. Saw a few photos which i suspect that is his gf or ex-gf(from his info). Are they back together again? I know you are curious how she looks like.. mMhz.. i can say.. so-so la.. but to him, she may be very pretty?

Why i suspect is her? Erm.. from the picture.. they look really close and sticky. I dont really know how to say. But, a picture speaks thousand words.. Its quite obvious for me.. comparing to other photos.. she is the most possible one.. *Jealous*

I have been asking myself.. How can we be together? any ways? i know it seem so impossible.. but like he say: nothing is impossible. But how can i convince myself that nothing is impossible in this case? Yea.. you need hard work to increase the possibility, but in this case, even if i put in hard work, will he accept that?

People ask me to not think so much... but if you were me, can you?

Some say that its impossible.. But what can i do since i already in love with him? Force myself to change target? Thats stupid.

Some say feeling will fade one day.. I totally agree.. But how long will it take? You may think for me, my feeling for him will fade very fast.. But i can say that you really dont understand me...

Should i just express my feeling to him as soon as possible or wait till i changed my target(which i think the chance is very minimal or it takes very long) or even wait till i die?

A lot of questions went through my mind when i think about him.. Do i really dare to express to him? How do i start about expressing my feeling to him? What will happen if i did that? Will he reject me? Avoid me? If he rejected me, how am i going to face him next time? Will he say something like "you are still a kid"? Will he scold me or find me a nuisance?

Someone suggested that start to be friend with him.. Know more about him rather than just having an first impression on him or listening to what others said about him.. I agreed with that.. But how do i start it? Imagine i talk to him about personal stuff.. He will feel very weird for sure... Sometimes i am even scared that he find me a nuisance when i keep talking with him and unwillingness to answer my questions..

Sometimes i really hope that he will see my blog and just happened to guess that all i have been talking about is him.. and take initiative to tell me how he feel..(which is quite impossible) with words that doesnt hurt me..

You guys may think that i am stupid for thinking all this... But how can i control it? Just take it as i am stupid and silly.. Afterall, i am still a girl. Girl tend to be silly when it comes to love. Same goes to guys actually..

True speaking.. I found that we had lots of similarities and stuffs which makes me feel that we are very compatiable..(other than looks) haha.. Even all sorts of horoscope says that we are perfect match.. hehe.. =x

Words for God: Please dont give me too much hope and disappoint me in the end. Dont play with human being even if you are a god. You should be helping us. If there is really no possible outcome for me and him, stop showing me hopes. If you continues to give me hopes.. i will assume that me and him can be together and i will put in my best... hahaha.....................................
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Haiz... Can i have more opinion and suggestions? (hoping for more encouragements =x)

P.S: Sorry Huihui.. another sad post again.. I cant think of any fun things that worth to mention. Theres still fun with friends.. but to you guys may not be that interesting.. So i will keep the happiness to myself.. (but too bad, my happiness is all covered up by all this stuffs that went through my mind..) HELP!

Changes in Life

2007-07-07T21:05:00.000+08:00

After viewing my cousin huihui blog, a post on her reminiscing her past friendster tesimonies, i also recalled that i changed quite a lot from young till now.

Dont ask me things before upper primary, i can say that i cant remember much, even my happiest or saddest moment. Bad memory yea?

But i know that when i was young, i am a super duper bad girl. I think most relatives knows it. I steal money from my parents and even my grandparents. Everytime $50 $50 (crazy.. taking things for granted).. I always go out and play with my primary school friends till very late. Stealing items from book shop or so (but all dont worth much... hehe). I always scold vulgarities which i now hate to hear.. quite ear pricking(刺耳).. I scold my mother, scold my father, scold my grandfather, scold my grandmother. But my grandmother very cute. I scold her "CB" when she nagged me to have dinner(i am so idiotic), and guess what was her reply? "you dont have ah?" then i diam diam.. haha.. And she was already 70+ or 80 and she can still joke with me. ***But i never ever scold my friends vulgarities.. maybe 2 or 3 times BY ACCIDENT, mouth slip.. haha.. I really treasure friendship alot. They are my 1st priorities in my life***

The TOH family used to live together happily, have gathering everyday. Playing with a lot of my relatives.. Life in ah ma house was so fun and great and i miss it so much. How i hope that i can go back to the past, when me, jie jie, huihui, boon tiong, boon tak, adeline, chu chu, ming hui, ming li, our neighbours.. playing around together.. keep gambling, chatting.. Oh ya.. i am a great gambler when i was young. Always ask for gambling. And they all say that i am a "suay shin" (unlucky god 衰神). Always bring bad luck to them whenever i touched the card. Lol.. I know to play all sort of gambling game since the age of 8. even "dai dee" and "kua oh"(the stick card with 4 colours, with 車馬炮將士相 and so..) you can see alot of old man and ah ma playing at CC or void deck gathering..

Oh ya.. when i say that i want to go back to the past, i mean, going back with the current good attitude, and enjoy our fun with so much lot of people..

Now.. they are all here and there... Ah ma and ah gong had passed away.. my family(me,mama,papa,jiejie,boontiong,boontak) had moved away since 1999. Now, jiejie married out le.. even with baby le.. living in tiong bahru, which is almost half a singapore distance away from us.. Boontiong has moved over to his wife house at boon keng, seldom come home.. though boontak and her wife is still living with us, but our distance was like heaven and earth ever since i quarrelled with him few years back, and we didnt communicate for 2 years. We used to play together, he piggyback me, carry me here and there around.. giving me excitement, and i step on his back to massage him.. So fun..

After all, We have all grown up.. boon tiong boon tak jie jie are now 31,30, 26 years old respectively. I am still 18 going 19.. They have their own family, work, and life to go on.. They cant be here to accompany me and entertain me anymore.

I always hope that boon tiong and jia jia(his wife) can come home more often to stay.. But.. they dun have the time to come all the way down from boon keng to jurong. Now, i always go to tiong bahru to find my sister and johnnie(her husband) and amabel her daughter. Staying at home facing the computer and watching show is quite boring actually.. Thats why i like to go to my sister house.. They chat with me.. ask me questions.. joke around.. I also enjoy chatting with johnnie's sister even though i am not very close with her. At least, i wont feel bored.

When i am in secondary school, i dont treasure my opportunities to study.. always pon ten, and slack around. But i know that i am more of a good girl compared to primary sch.. But still quite bad, in terms of childish-ness. I still dont know how to think. How hard is life and so.. Actually secondary 3 is the most dangerous route where students will tend to change bad... start to try and experience new things.. like smoking.. creating trouble around.. RELAX... I DONT.. lucky i am not easily influenced by others.. I got my way in life.. I dont like means i dont like.. No one can change me..

I still "take" money from papa though.. but not that much compared to last time.. $10 $10 bah.. cause of needs.. need to buy some daily neccessities or so.. but forget to tell him.. I feel so lucky that they are seldom angry or take action against me like calling the police.. haha.. I really love my grandfather.. I always "take" his money and even the whole family found out and all scolding me, he still helped me against them.. saying then nvm la.. i am still young or so.. Glad to have such a good grandparent.

After i missed a year of study.. I changed quite alot. I start to treasure studies. I try to go to sch everyday.. and i am very enthu to study. PBL is fun and interesting. It motivates me to study. But because i like to follow my friends around, so i tend to follow their decision for skipping school together. But i still have my stand sometimes. I will stay in school if i REALLY REALLY wants to, and they will leave on their own.. I know that i cant just let others affect my studies.. I already wasted 1 year.. i dont want to waste another year. Now, i am a more brave girl, who dare to speak up. i think of what others feel. I seldom gamble or and "take" my parent money. I will ask and beg.. lol.. I become stronger.. I seldom cry compared to last time who cry every here and there, even when i lose money during gambling. haha. just like yiwen. I only cry in my sleep.. I am more friendly of course. Last time i always thought that human are all so scary to talk with and they may do me harm anytime. lol.. But now, i think that they are just a normal human being. If they really harm me... fight back la.. i believe i can do it. defend.. lock their hands.. grab them.. call the police.. lol..

To friends and family.. I wont be rude to them.. I talked to them nicely.. sometimes i will create some fun to entertain them.. Compared to last time where i shout and scold vulgarities everywhere i go.. heaven and earth ah.. I learnt to respect people.. think from their view.. Try to avoid trouble.. try to not make them angry with me.. try to make them feel more comfortable and enjoyable with me.. Try to fulfil whatever they like.. If they need help from me.. i am always there for them.. if they have problems to share.. i have my ears for them..

I am once a gangster-like.. but now i am a police-like.. lol.. heaven and earth.. I go towards justice..LOL! I even seldom download stuffs from internet!!

I believe i am a good girl now compared to last time..(lol.. bhb) But i believe i am still a silly girl..

Papa Mama is already going 60..(mama 57, papa 60 in august 26).. Retirement age le.. but they are still working.. trying to earn more money FOR ME..(most probably.. cause they know i am a great money spender)... Such a great parent.. But i always disappoint them.. I really dont want to.. but i cant resist.. How? Now i only can work hard in my study.. and faster go out and work.. Now at least i am better in control in spending money le.. Last time my pocket money wont have anything left at the end of each day.. but now.. the money in my wallet keep growing and growing.. hehe.. But i believe.. anytime, any one day, the whole money in my wallet will be gone again.. Aiyo.. why are everything in the world needs $$$!!!?

Papa mama pai seh ah.. i really hope to become a police officer.. i know you guys dont wish to.. but.... i really dont know what i am interested in other than this.. if i really really cant make it to become a police.. i will try others.. let it be.. papa told me that i can take care of his businesses.. Maybe? See how my path goes bah.. there are always alternatives..

Which Baby Are You?

2007-07-02T18:43:00.000+08:00

Actually this trend has been up for quite long le.. Its quite accurate though.. you can check out what kind of personalities you MIGHT have that are same as the one listed.

Jan

Pretty/handsome.
Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Sensitive. Down-to-Earth. Stubborn. Repost this in 5 mins and you will meet someone new in 8 days that will perfectly balance your personality.

Feb

Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexiest out of everyone. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest And loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Horny. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions. Repost this in 5 mins and you will talk to someone new and realize that you are a perfect match.

Mar

Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Great kisser. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Observant and assesses others. If you repost this in the next 5 mins, you will meet your new love in 8 days.

Apr

Suave and compromising. Funny and humorous. Stubborn. Very talkative. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal. Does work well with others. Very confidant. Sensitive. Positive Attitude. Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Able to cheer everyone up and/or make them laugh. Able to motivate oneself and others. Understanding. Fun to be around. Outgoing. Hyper. Bubbly personality. Secretive. Boy/girl crazy. Loves sports, music, leisure and traveling. Systematic. Hot but has brains. If you repost this in 5 mins, a cutie that's caught your eye will introduce themselves and you will realize that you are very much alike in the next 2 days.

May

Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Shy towards opposite sex. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High-spirited. If you repost this in the next 5 minutes, you will become close to someone you do not speak too much in the next 4 days.

Jun

You've got the best personality and are an absolute pleasure to be around. You love to make new friends and be outgoing. You are a great flirt and more than likely have an a very attractive partner. a wicked hottie. It is also more than likely that you have a massive record collection. You have a great choice in films, and may one day become a famous actor/actress yourself - heck, you've got the looks for it!!! IN the next 6 days you will meet someone that may possibly become one of your closest friends, if you repost this in 5 minutes.

Jul

Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable........ Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. spazzy at times. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover. Repost this in the next 5 mins and your reputation will boost someway in the next 12 days

Aug

Outgoing personality. takes risks. feeds on attention. No self-control. Kind hearted. Self-confident. Loud and boisterous. VERY revengeful. Easy to get along with and talk to. Has an "every thing's peachy" attitude. Likes talking and singing. Loves music. Daydreamer. Easily distracted. Hates not being trusted. BIG imagination. Loves to be loved. Hates studying. in need of "that someone". Longs for freedom. Rebellious when withheld or restricted. Lives by "no pain no gain" caring........ Always a suspect. Playful. Mysterious. "charming" or "beautiful" to everyone. stubborn. curious. Independent. Strong willed. A fighter. Repost in 5 mins and you will meet the love of your life sometime next month.

Sep

Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself........ Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Usually you have many friends. Enjoys to make love. Emotional. Stubborn. Hasty. Good memory. Moving, motivates oneself and others. Loves to travel and explore. Sometimes sexy in a way that only their lover can understand. If you do not repost this in the next 5 mins, someone very close to you will become mad at you in the next 8 days.

Oct

Loves to chat........ Loves those who love them. Loves to takes things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Brave and fearless. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care to control emotions. Unpredictable. Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest AND sexiest of them all. repost this in 5 mins or you will not meet the love of your life for 10 years.

Nov

Trustworthy and loyal. Very passionate and dangerous. Wild at times. Knows how to have fun. Sexy and mysterious. Everyone is drawn towards your inner and outer beauty and independent personality. Playful, but secretive. Very emotional and temperamental sometimes. Meets new people easily and very social in a group. Fearless and independent. Can hold their own. Stands out in a crowd. Essentially very smart. Usually, the greatest men are born in this month. If you ever begin a relationship with someone from this month, hold on to them because their one of a kind. Repost in 5 mins & you will excel in a major event coming up sometime this month.

Dec

This straight-up means you are the most good-looking person possible... Better than all of these other months! Loyal and generous. Patriotic. Competitive in everything. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Easy to talk to, though hard to understand. Thinks far with vision, yet complicated to know. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Has that someone always on his/her mind. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding. Able to show character. One guy/girl kind of person. Loveable. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves music. Pretty/handsome. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Sensitive. [A hot new guy/girl will catch your eye & you will catch theirs too in the next 6 days, if you repost in 5min

29 June 2007

2007-06-29T20:58:00.000+08:00

Almost ganna scolded by the security guard for letting people bring food to the auditorium. Me and Yiwen didnt actual realise as we were busy checking if the audience were having possession of the tickets. And those people walk so fast that we can only concentrate on their ticket.But we do remind the crowd controllers to inform every people in the queue not to bring any food in.

I was like so down. I feel that i had failed my job. I dont like to have that kind of feeling of incapability. If its my job or task, i am commited to it. I wont like any mistakes to happen. I want to put in my best. But this kind of thing happened just now which makes me so sad.

After the concert ends, our work is done. We can make the leave. I really dont want to leave so early. I wanted to stay and see if he will talk to the members about the concert. But yiwen seems to want to leave that place so badly. Take her bag and go. I can only just follow. If i say that i wanted to stay for awhile more, it sounds so weird. And if i leave alone in that place, it is EVEN WEIRD-ER.

I really dont feel like leaving that place so early, hoping to see him more. My heart ask me to stay, and my mind ask me to move with yiwen. My legs are shaking everywhere as i walk towards the station. Never ever tried my legs will SHAKE while walking de.. the feeling is so weird. I told yiwen that i want to take mrt to my sis house. But my sis havent reply me if i can go to her house. I stand at the control station while waiting for my sis to reply, hoping that he may appear suddenly. hehe. But it is so stupid. Then i think i shouldnt wait and should go back home straight. So i went back to the bus interchange again.

Actually at first we plan to walk to the station, but it was raining, and i tot there will be parts where there is no shelter on the way there. So we decide to take bus. Then after that, Zhi ying(fren from CAP) says that there is shelter all the way there, so i came out of this idea, to walk slowly to the station, and he walk fast so he can catch up with the steps and we may met. But they dont want. Haizz.. Disappointed.

In the bus, i keep thinking that why should i keep follow them. I can just do whatever i like, whether to stay there or to walk slowly to the station. I feel so stupid and useless. I wanted to cry, but i was in the bus. Tears are rolling out soon, but i make them flow back on time. Its always like this. I am always following the majority. I mean in this case. Cause this kind of thing is unrevealable. Its my own thoughts and feelings. I cant make people to agree with me and follow me. Haiz.. When can i actually have a chance to get closer to him?

I am so tired after thinking so much and i fall asleep in bus. The mother with a kid sitting beside me no motherhood ah. Let her son climb her climb there in the bus, stand on the seat between me and the mother. The son almost step on my lap. Why not let your son step on my shoulder? I am already very fan. His son still irritates me. And next is a indian little girl that occupied the seat beside me. She keep tickling my waist while i am sleeping. (she wanted to take something from her pocket and her elbow keep touching my waist).

I knocked my head 4 times in total for the whole trip back home. My right head is going to burst soon. My head is going to become a bean shape soon.

And i bite my lips once. =.=

Everyone wants Daniel back.. me.. felicia... farhanah.. almost all of the W45M.. Why must they change so suddenly? Cant stand for 2 more months? Cant keep to the original plan. I admit that i feel easier and better when presenting during soo hoo lesson compared to daniel's, but soo hoo still has a long way to learn. Know what i found out? She wasnt able to concentrate to listen to what the students are presenting. Or rather, i should say she was just doing on her own works on her computer instead of listening and viewing the slides. Very less interaction too.

I know that faci has some moment that they need to note down the comment on the students. But she can keep her eyes on her own computer for 2 or 3 min, which can also be the amount of time to present 1-3 slides. When liuqing and darius was presenting, i dont think she knows what they are presenting. I dont think that she can listen to what liuqing presents. I hardly hear clearly what liuqing says. SH was just beside me. i dont think she can clearly hear and understand what liuqing says too. its ok.. she can clarify with her.. BUT SHE DIDNT! No questions asked!

Imagine you are presenting. You put in effort in presenting, but the commentor was not listening. How is she going to comment? Anyhow grade? OK.. she told me that she has bad memory and need to take down the comments. Cant you just let the students complete the whole presentation first then comment? or even comment on each slide, with the brief point of their strengths and weaknesses?

Actually a lot of faci has this problem too. did not exactly concentrate on the presentation.. But SH has overdone it. Talk about other pros of her.. at least she tried her best to have interaction with the students.. chatting with them.. trying to create fun.. And new faci usually need practises and experiences, so we cant really blame her since she is a newbie. But i still want him back! Not biased ah.. He is really better than her. Why experiment on W45M? T.T

Things to cheer me up..!

He is so cute and funny. Suddenly sing. I shocked. haha.. me and yiwen stared at each other. His voice good sia. Too bad he only sings 1 sentence. hahaha.. He also speaks very good chinese and english. He really have a nice vocal.

講不出聲

2007-06-28T21:36:00.000+08:00

關菊英 - 講不出聲

歌曲: 講不出聲
主唱: 關菊英
作曲: 鄧智偉
填詞: 張美賢

誰人無得到一切的渴求
誰人無攻於心計的理由
平凡人生天真過後
要怎麼走

如何從委曲中再相信人
誰無狂想不可告人
難忘時光必須散席留下我

# 快樂時抱著時
那是至死不渝朋友
決裂時你為何以為再拖一會
還有時候

即使多風光都要清醒
有幾多掌聲也是孤清
你只可聽到我大笑聲
哭泣也未放聲

講不出聲講不出聲
任由自己半夜驚醒
我只不過偶爾受了驚
於是才遺忘本性 #

誰人能甘心一世一個人
如何才得資格可愛人
誠惶誠恐只得我是明白我

Repeat #

嚟首歌都幾能形容我侕傢嘎心情。。。聼了就想泣。。超鍾意！

你第一次聼就會覺得有D老套，毛毛嘎感覺，但係聼多幾次，聼耐了，就會覺得係一首好好既歌了！個主唱把聲都既 nice 嘎。

Aiyo!!

2007-06-27T22:30:00.000+08:00

Aiyo! Why everytime when i am going to sleep.. he onlines.. Then i will got tempted not to sleep.. and i will not have enough sleep the next day.. haha..

Trying to Relax myself..

2007-06-27T20:21:00.000+08:00

You Are 21 Years Old

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.

13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.

20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.

30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!

40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

I only look young.. but my character does not.. hehe

You Are a German Shepherd Puppy

Intelligent, quick witted, and a bit aggressive.
You've got the jaw power to take a bite out of anyone you choose.

What Breed of Puppy Are You?

No wonder i wanted to become a police.. haha..

Your Life Is Worth...

$910,500

How Much Is Your Life Worth?

$910,500!? Good or not? NO! I should be PRICELESS! wakakaka

You Are 40% Extrovert, 60% Introvert

You're a bit outgoing, a bit reserved
Like most people, you enjoy being social
But you also value the time you have alone
You have struck a good balance!

Are You An Extrovert or An Introvert?

Yea.. Agreeable..

Your Birthdate: September 24

You understand people well and are a natural born therapist.
A peacemaker, people always seem to get along when you are around.
You tend to be a father or mother figure to friends, even to those older than you.
You enjoy your role, and you find that you are close to many people.

Your strength: Your devotion

Your weakness: Reliance on others for happiness

Your power color: Lilac

Your power symbol: Heart

Your power month: June

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

True...

You Are A Realistic Romantic

It's easy for you to get swept away by romance...
But you've done a pretty good job keeping perspective.
You're still taken in by love poems and sunsets
You just don't fall for every dreamy pick up line!

Are You Romantic or Realistic?

You Are 64% Pure

Well, you're not exactly an angel - but you're pretty darn close.
But chances are, you have a couple juicy secrets deep in your closet.

How Pure Are You?

You Are 75% Grown Up, 25% Kid

Congratulations, you are definitely quite emotionally mature.
Although you have your moments of moodiness, you're usually stable and level headed.

How Emotionally Mature Are You?

You Are Somewhat Mature

You definitely act like an adult sometimes, but a big part of you is still a kid at heart.
While your immature side is definitely fun, you're going to have to grow up sooner or later.

Are You Immature?

I tend to act like a kid to entertain my friends so as to make them laugh and happy..

You Inner Gender is Female

You're sensitive, caring, and willing to connect with anyone who's open to you.
You make friends easily, and you enjoy all sorts of conversations.
You understand most people you meet - better than they understand themselves.
You're totally a woman... or at the very least, your soul is female.

What's Your Inner Gender?

Luckily i am still a female~ hehe

You Are a Realist

You don't see the glass as half empty or half full. You see what's exactly in the glass.
You never try to make a bad situation seem better than it is...
But you also never sabotage any good things you have going on.
You are brutally honest in your assessments of situations - and this always seems to help you cope.

Are You An Optimist or Pessimist?

You Are a Feminine Beauty!

You make any guy feel like a man, simply by standing next to him
You have a classic womanly appeal - and you've got a look for every occasion
This doesn't mean that you can't kick back in (designer) jeans and sneakers
You just prefer to be girly and sweet as often as possible

What Type of Beauty Are You?

I am not exactly that boyish now right? hehehe..

You Are Pretty Happy

You generally have a happy, fulfilling life.
But things could be a little better, and deep down, you know it.
Maybe you need more supportive friends or a more challenging career.
Something is preventing you from being totally happy. You just need to figure out what it is!

How Happy Are You, Really?

Yea.. i am pretty happy with my life now.. i am very fortunate..

Your Personality is Somewhat Rare (ISFP)

Your personality type is caring, peaceful, artistic, and calm.

Only about 7% of all people have your personality, including 8% of all women and 6% of all men
You are Introverted, Sensing, Feeling, and Perceiving.

How Rare Is Your Personality?

Your Attitude is Better than 60% of the Population

You have a good attitude. While a realist, you do see the positive side of most things. People love to be around you.

How's Your Attitude?

You Are 78% Peaceful

You are a very peaceful person. All is good in your world, no matter what's going on.
Occasionally you let your problems get to you, but you generally remain upbeat.
Your inner strength is inspirational - much more so than you may realize.

How Peaceful Are You?

Yea... P.E.A.C.E! No Anger No Grudge!

Your Sensitivity Score: 53%

As far as sensitivity goes, you're a lot more in tune than most people.
You can't help but be touched by what's around you - good and bad.
But when things do get really bad around you, you are strong enough not to break down.

Are You Extremely Sensitive?

More or less true.. Lol!

Late now..

2007-06-27T00:27:00.000+08:00

Why am I staying up still this late? There’s lesson tml right?

I am simply just waiting for him to offline. I really don’t know why I am doing this. I planned to sleep at around 845 pm or so just now… I am damn sleepy… But he suddenly appear online. I wanted to chat with him, but I really don’t know how to talk to him. I started staring at his chatbox, with heart thumping hard and I think and think for about 5min. “I think I should ask some random question about the concert”

My heart thump again as I heard the message bells. We “chatted” for not more than 10 sentences combination and I told him “I think I should not disturb you anymore”. I wanted to go and sleep, but I just cant leave my eyes off his nick. As long as he is online, I just don’t want to leave. I don’t know the reason why. That’s why I am still up here till now. He is still online! How!? I am going to give him up to 1am! He don’t have any lesson tml? Why is he still not sleeping at this time?

He is really that busy? Or busy with something else? Anyway, I don’t feel as sleepy as before le…
Still online…………………(12:39am)

A nice method to type out "un-revealable" for only clever person to know.. Method stolen from my dear friend Hazel.. haha

Bored

2007-06-26T22:32:00.000+08:00

Lol... See Joey and Ange they all playing again.. I also want to play play this MyHeritage.. wahahaha.. Actually i am the one who started it right? But i think i got it from my sis or relative.

Nvm.. nothing to do.. So try again..

I look like guys more.. T.T I am destined to be a little boyish, even with long hair.. LOL! If i am a boy, i think i am handsome.. But i want to be a girl...!

And i did this quiz (source from Ange)

You Are 48% Spoiled

You're a little spoiled, but you're not spoiled rotten.
You love to be showered with gifts and affection, but you're good at keeping your demands to a minimum!

Are You Spoiled?

and it shows that i am not that spoilt! Ange is even more spoilt! 60%! Wakakakaka.. Guess i am thinking too much.. Over-sensitive is libra's characteristic! haha..

Guys Like That You're Sensitive

And not in that "cry at a drop of a hat" sort of way
You just get most guys - even if you're not trying to
Guys find it is easy to confide in you and tell you their secrets
No wonder you tend to get close quickly in relationships!

What Do Guys Like About You?

I admit i am sensitive.. is sensitive a good thing for guys? Yea.. i am easy to confide with and i dont reveal secrets! My mouth is damn tight! So.. friends.. if you do have any problem.. A good listener is here for you..

Your Aura is Blue

Spiritual and calm, you tend to live a quiet but enriching life.
You are very giving of yourself. And it's hard for you to let go of relationships.

The purpose of your life: showing love to other people

Famous blues include: Angelina Jolie, the Dali Lama, Oprah

Careers for you to try: Psychic, Peace Corps Volunteer, Counselor

What Color Is Your Aura?

TRUE TRUE! I LOVE QUIET AND PEACE! But still some fun once awhile.. I am damn calm and wont over-react. And what exactly does spiritual means in personality term? Giving? Perhaps~ And I LOVE BLUE COLOUR!

You Are Upper Middle Class

You're stuck in an interesting middle area between upper and middle class.
You're wealthy enough for most people to call you rich (or at least comfortable), but you don't feel rich!
Climbing your way to the top is hard work. And you've often feel stretched for time and resources.
If only you had a little more money! You can't help but wish you had the lifestyle of the upper class.

You may end up: A manager, high school teacher, or accountant.

Other people who share your class: "White collar" professionals and business people

What Class Are You?

TRUE AGAIN LA! People call me rich but i dont feel that i am rich! But i dont think that i am upper middle class.. Middle still ok ok..

You Should Be With an Air Sign!

Your best match is a Gemini, Libra, or Aquarius

Why? You crave excitement and playful banter
Only an Air Sign can match your wit - and keep you on your toes
As for fun, an Air Sign guy will show you plenty� with tons of surprises
Just be sure to introduce him to some new playful experiences as well!

What Sign Guy Should You Date?

Mmhz... No comments..

You Are 40% Abnormal

You are at medium risk for being a psychopath. It is somewhat likely that you have no soul.

You are at medium risk for having a borderline personality. It is somewhat likely that you are a chaotic mess.

You are at medium risk for having a narcissistic personality. It is somewhat likely that you are in love with your own reflection.

You are at medium risk for having a social phobia. It is somewhat likely that you feel most comfortable in your mom's basement.

You are at medium risk for obsessive compulsive disorder. It is somewhat likely that you are addicted to hand sanitizer.

How Abnormal Are You?

... I am normal! I am just special! Lol~

You Are Somewhat Logical

Ok, so didn't get the majority of questions right
But you did answer some pretty tough questions correctly
Logic may not be your strong point, but you hold your own!

How Logical Are You?

Yea.. I am somewhat logical.. When friends tell me Jokes or ask me riddles, i tend to think them in logical way, and in the end, i got the scoldings~ But now, i am better with jokes and riddles with the aid from Yiwen Sebas and Felicia! hehe

You Have Low Self Esteem 52% of the Time

While you sometimes feel good about yourself, you tend to struggle a little with self esteem issues.
It's not about changing who you are, it's about accepting your faults. You just need to be less critical and demanding of yourself!

How is Your Self Esteem?

mMhz...

Your EQ is 147

50 or less: Thanks for answering honestly. Now get yourself a shrink, quick!
51-70: When it comes to understanding human emotions, you'd have better luck understanding Chinese.
71-90: You've got more emotional intelligence than the average frat boy. Barely.
91-110: You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that.
111-130: You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt.
131-150: You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin.
150+: Two possibilities - you've either out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil... or you're a dirty liar.

What's Your EQ (Emotional Intelligence Quotient)?

Wahahhaa.. True?

How You Life Your Life

You seem to be straight forward, but you keep a lot inside.
You're laid back and chill, but sometimes you care too much about what others think.
You tend to have one best friend you hang with, as opposed to many aquaintences.
You have one big dream in your life, and you never lose sight of it.

How Do You Live Your Life?

True true..

My Personality...

2007-06-24T02:28:00.000+08:00

Hi friends and relatives.. I really hope to know what you guys think about me.. feel about me.. from your own view.. Be it bad or good.. just click this link or the one under my profile and above my truefriendtest and choose the description that best suit my personality.. Think before doing.. dont tell white lies.. Lol.. Thanks very much for your time..

So many things happened..

2007-06-23T17:47:00.000+08:00

I really dont know what to say.. there are so many things happening in this week, be it happy or sad... I am sad when i heard this (although it may be just a rumor), but when i heard about something happy for me that will overcome this sad news, it turns out to become another sad news... and more and more sad news coming up to relate to this sad news.. I am tired of all this already.. I had a lot of things to say but i dont know how to say...

I have not much mood to entertain and joke with my frenz like last time anymore. And even when i laugh, i had to force myself to laugh.

I feel that these few days i have been cheating myself.. trying to be optimistic, whereas others may feel that i am being stupid.. I am always a optimistic person.. no matter what happens in my life.. i had never give up on my life, thinking of committing suicide or so which i think it is a very stupid thing to do last time.

I know that nothing is impossible.. be it to become a police, or becoming a millionaire for me. I always look positively in my life.. I always think that luck is always on my side..

True speaking... I really feel that i am a very bad girl... Even till now..
I am actually a very fortunate girl already compared to many others that i experienced with.. My frenz, Who ever got a $2000+ present from their parent at the age of 15? I believe theres not more than 3.. I asked for a laptop and my father bought me. I asked for a PS2 from my mother, (even when my house has already 1 set which belongs to my brother) and she bought me..

I quarrelled with my 2nd brother who is 11 years older than me because of a small matter, and i didnt talked to him for 2 years. What will your parent do if you did this? Scold you? For me, they did not.. And i eventually get the laptop and the PS2 from them.. I feel so bad.. Its kind of threatening.. And it seems like i am taking things for granted.. I feel that i am so bad.. I changed HP every year since sec 1. From Nokia 3310 to 8250 to SE Z200 to Panasonic G88 to SE K700i to SE W850i and more.. My panasonic G88 was stolen.. and they didnt say a word..

I always think that they are rich.. But actually they are not.. My mother and father have been trying to save money.. bills or foods... But if i want.. they will just try their best to say "OK".. I can eat up $20 worth of food a day.. and 3 times a week at this price. Means a week, i can spen $100 on food. My mother gives me pocket money EVERYDAY. Talking about my home electric bill... Highest is $400+ .. Avg $300.. I know its because of me.. Staying at home.. on-ing air con at least 10 hours a day last time, no matter day or night. (its better now, i around 6 hours a day. haha). I want SCV CableTv subscription, she gave me. And i am the only one using it. Know what... Till now, i only earned $60 ON MY OWN. I have not been working.

I wanted a nintendo DS, mama got me one. And at that time, i am already 17 years old. And i had gotten the first batch of ninteno wii 1 or 2 months ago.. And i had not been using it regularly cause i am currently studying in RP. So what for i buy it?? What a waste..

I really dont wanna waste their money anymore.. But there are so many new products appearing in the world that i cant resist of having.. I think that my father once told me.. There are always update everyday everywhere.. It is really difficult to catch up to date.. What you have now, you just use them if they still can be used. Now, i had tried to change.. I asked for something.. And if they say no, i will stop asking. I dont want to make them feel that i am a spoilt kids anymore. I am already 18+... Immediately when i am 18 on 24th sep 2006, i asked for money to learn driving.. I spent $1400 on it. After i got my licence on march 2007, I ASKED FOR A CAR! And when my mother says that she may buy me a car after my 1 year probation and i was actually giving a hope to it! Its so stupid..! I feet that i am a super duper !#&*^!@&*#! ass girl when i think of it now.

I am now aiming to be a "almost" perfectionist like him... He really had a positive attitude in life... I am already 18+... Its time to start working towards it..

I am a totally spoilt kid.. But i know that i am still a good girl in someway actually.. Its still not too late to change it.. Hope everyone support me! If i want to buy anything that is useless... SCOLD ME PLEASE~~~~ STOP ME PLEASE... Thanks..

What a Day!

2007-06-21T20:56:00.000+08:00

Receive a shocking news from him. What reaction do you guys expect me to have? All expect me to cry, but i know i cant. He will feel weird that i cried. (i will cry at home. haha) But i didnt expect, maya is the first one to cry.

Luckily, Yiwen has left after the first meeting. If not, she will cry tilllllllllllllllllll..................

He will still be in RP. And He told us more about himself. His msn, his blog..

And

Jiejie.. from tomorrow onwards i will move to your house.. haha..
Ask papa to move to tiong bahru lehz.. Buy meraprime unit! haha.. then you can enjoy swimming with amabel. And our whole family will be there. You,johnnie,amabel are there.. papa's coffee shop is there.. even boon tiong boon tak may buy a house there.

Should ask papa to buy first.. then when boon tak boon tiong buy a house there, since it is near to parent's house, they will be subsidies.. wakakkaka... nice plan.. Tell papa!!

Memories In Kuala Lumpur Berjaya Times Square 7th-9th June 2007

2007-06-11T14:58:00.000+08:00

More coming up~

The Fun in KL~

2007-06-10T23:01:00.000+08:00

Dong Buay Diao la!.. this is the funny game we played in KL - The Little Indian ??

Each of them were given 1 card to be placed on their forehead.. Without viewing it.. only others can.. except you.. And the smallest no. in the card he/she gets loses.. They have 2 chances to decide if they wanted to exchange for a new cards.. others job is to tempt that player to change card or not to..

There are a few kind of punishments to be drawn out from a box..

1) Monkey See Monkey Do
2) Do some sexy moves
3) Tell a Dirty truth
4) Walk out of the room standing at the corridor and shout out your profile
5) Do pole dance

and dunno wads more...

The first one to get punished is Farhanah! She was forced to do a pole dance but she is so shy that she really cant do...

The 2nd loser was Felicia Tan Chio Bu with some sexy dance moves.... HERE IS FINALLY THE VIDEO!

Cannot make it la! I laugh till my wraist and stomach cramp!! Till now.. i see again i laugh again! Au! AU! au!~~

Then the monkey see monkey do from me.. the 3rd loser.. lead by felicia tan the MONKEY!

The 4th loser is still me i think.. with a draw of true dirty secret.. and i said about me first watching porno at primary 4..

Sorry.. As i feel that my videos are very embarrassing for me, i will remove it. haha

The 5th loser is sebastien with monkey see monkey do also.. still felicia the monkey..

Gan pua funny right!? heard the loud laughing from me!? till now i am still laughing!

Next is Yuji! with sexy moves again!

Yuji! U almost ZHAO GENG!! and u shake well!! LOL...!

And yiwen... ke lian la... ganna cheat! but you are the only one who are not yet punished.. hehehehehe... Da da~ Pole dance... same as farhanah...

dun dare to do.. then do another one.. pick again... and u got a.......? mokey see monkey do with yuji as the main monkey??

lol... easy for u la... do it well girl... and here is it....

Still a failure... haiz... ~ lol..
Know why is the lollipop doing there... this is the joke that goes on...

Yiwen: What is the strawberry condom, got strawberry flavour? got the smell or wad?
Farhanah: you can go taste your own la.. slip it into your finger.. and lick...
All: LOL!!! WAHAHAHHAHA..

this is why the lollipop was there for yiwen to taste and suck..! just that it is grape flavour and not strawberry.. hahahahaha...

Overall super fun la.. we have alot of funs other than this game... like the themepark.. and taboos! and also yiwen's riddles... and some down and sadness.. will upload the pictures soon..

I'm BACK!

2007-06-09T23:44:00.000+08:00

Woot! Reporting back to my laptop safely! Please do not call any police...

Anyway... The 3 days was quite fun for me!! Especially the games we have and our heart-to-heart talks.. I really dont like shopping... I wanted to buy myself clothes... But end up i didnt buy any... dont know why also.. But i do bought a Cap, a necklace and a few nintendo wii games and of course Chewing GumS! And i am still left with half of the money i had originally.

But the games we have are really fun! SUPER FUNNY SIA! i will load up the videos and photos soon after i got all of them.. and i will describe what's going on...

We had the themepark~ Yiwen and Felicia wanna try roller coaster... I LOVE ROLLER COASTER!.. it's thrilling.. But whenever i thought of the scene of roller coaster in Final Destination 3..... ehh.... argh.... i suddenly lose faith in taking times square roller coaster.. But in the end... i still played it with my dear frenz.. with a thought of "aiya... nvm la! want die die together!"...

PHEW~~~ LUCKY I CAME DOWN THE RIDE SAFELY!! soon after that.. we saw and realised that the poles holding on to the track of the coaster, IS SHAKING!! omg! Heng ah!! i already came down safely!! and! i wont go back to the RC again! But roller coaster is really fun! i will take any RC rides which got 100% safety that it wont occur like what the FD3 shows..

And also.. i like the spin spin spin one! the ride that spins on the top about 6 or 7 levels from ground? Very relaxing... And know what!? everytime i take rides in themepark.. i am always in a sleepy mode... Super sleepy sia.. No matter how fast the roller coaster and the 360 degree spinner spins.. i still yawn all the way until we leave the themepark.. the more i play, the more sleepy i am.. but i can feel the rides la.. very SONG and SHIOK ah!

Felicia tan chio bu crazy one la! keep shouting! and anyhow shout! those who dunno who this of my fren is, take a look at the crazy video clip of her in the hotel and u will know HOW SIAO SHE IS! hahahaha..

Miss the games man!

And! We keep worrying about the hotel... whether there will be any eerie thingys happening.. For me i dont feel anything la.. i always look in the optimistic way.. example if i heard something weird.. i will do and say some funny things to cover the eerie-ness, then everything will be fine... But FTCB like dio a few "orh-qing"... and something weird happening in their room.. seems like their room...... he he he... nvm.... at least we all came back safely!

Thats all.. very sleepy... let me sleep first... *YAWN* byebye!

Bye ByE!!!

2007-06-06T18:37:00.000+08:00

From 7th June 8am to 9th June afternoon i will be away from singapore setting off to Kuala Lumpur with 5 of my beloved classmates a.k.a FrenZz (Yiwen ,Felicia, Farhanah bte AHMAD, Sebas and Yuji!)

Dont miss me! Especially Mama.. Dont worry.. i wont bring anything back for you.. haha..

And Thanks Papa for making a trip down to Boon Lay this afternoon to help me exchange the money.. And thanks for the money! didnt expect you will give me that much.. Thought you will give me 300RM or so... haha..

Hope its a safe trip there and Back... And Please... i hope that my bags will come back together with me! with what i have when i went there..! And If i didnt blog after 9th night.. Please do make some effort to call the police and inform my parent.. haha..

And auntie.. you came at the wrong time la! I told you say u coming on the 10th+! Why so early! Or i remember wrongly? Dont spoil my mood there lehz... Hope you faster go home...!

Still considering whether i should bring my HP or not.. ?

My treasure!!

2007-05-30T20:26:00.000+08:00

Lol... i will treasure these photos... THANKS FELICIA TAN CHIO BU for suggesting this! LOL! and the photographer SEBASTIEN SIM WHAT WHAT and FARHANAH BTE AHMAD!

Nokia N95 - 5.0 MegaPixel

Sony Ericsson K800i - CyberShot 3.0 MegaPixel

haha.. saw the difference?

Anyway...

where are the guys???

Nvm.. CHIO BUs are enough! lol~

Hope more coming up!

YAy YAY YaY!

2007-05-28T19:05:00.000+08:00

OMG! I was so damn happy now! After i see my weight using my sis-in-law's electronic weighing machine (This is what i usually use everyday to take note of my weight) at 7pm.

Just yesterday, i was still nagging and worrying about my weight because i gained about 1kg. Yesterday night before sleep my weight was 48.9kg. I was like "wtf"? i finally slimed down to 47.6kg(my usually average weight for the last few months. highest i have reach is 48.5kg for that few months.. and lowest i reached is 45.8kg), and now i regain back to the weight i orginally was when i was in secondary school(which is 49kg or 50kg)... I was so pissed of my weight!

Then i recalled back what i eat yesterday and the day before.. quite a lot actually.. Then i tell myself that, today, i must not eat! Or just a tiny bit! End up, I ate a cheese stick at 8am+... Finish a bottle of green tea at 10am, Drank a cup of Red Tea(bubble tea) with all the pearls gurped up! and then grilled chicken chop + Ice lemon tea(TEA AGAIN! 3Rd Cup of TEAs!).. I think to myself... Die die die... zhi bai si liao! confirm 49kg+ or 50kg!.... Thanks to GOD! He make me STOMACHE! wooo hooo... yiwen and farhanah say i stomache till the face looks very pale.. like wanna die liddat.. I went to the toilet a few times.. shitted once nia.. But shh shh alot! (3 TEAs lehz..) LOL..

At 5+pm on the way to causeway point, with mishuelle and yiwen.. i suggested to buy soya beancurd with peanut dumplings... But still unsure if causeway point have it... I AM CRAZY! I STILL CAN THINK OF EATTING THIS!.. The 2 girls (who are suppose to go on diet too together with me) suddenly got tempted by me... So we go around searching for Mr.JollyBean.. hahaha... LUCKY causeway point didnt sell this..! If not i will confirm be 50Kg!.. Phew~~ So we decide to leave causeway point.. without buying any food.. and i decide to stay unfeed till tml morning..

I AM CRAZY AGAINNNNN!!!! Walk pass Crystal Jade Bread! I was tempted by the tiramisu! and i find the mini cheesecake cute and "unharmed"(cause small small nia, takes about 1 or 2 bites the most, i wont gain much fat with it)... I queued up without any further consideration... "auntie... i want 1 tiramisu and 1 mini cheesecake"... After i paid for what i get.. i start to regret.. "i shouldnt eat anymore.. nvm.. can keep in fridge tml then eat.. or today eat 1 first.." My stomach was still aching at that time.. i feel like walking faster and faster reach home to enjoy my poo pooing..

After i poo finish... and clean finish.. wash handed.. i faster go to the weighing machine.. I was really shocked by the result shown.. at first i thought.. i must add least get 47.5kg or so after my big business... but... THANKS GOD! i was 46.6kg now! Thanks for the stomache! Next time i should drink more teas to slim down..! Should recommend this method to yiwen and mish since they both wanted to lose weight.. Next time eat till full full. Drink 5 bottles of tea.. must be a mixture of different teas.. more efficient! LOL... And Ouch Ouch Ouch.. then POO POO POO.. lose few kg! wakakaka... If you dont suffer, you wont gain...

Anyway... Now i am enjoying my tiramisu and mini cheesecake without much worries! wakakakkakaka... hehehehehe...

More Update on Yoyo!

2007-05-22T21:52:00.000+08:00

What Should I Do? I dont want to!

2007-05-22T20:06:00.000+08:00

Everytime when it came to "that module", i messed up myself. I was damn nervous with him looking at me. I dont know how to present having eye contact with him. I get nervous easily. Even during the 2nd meeting when he came to discuss with us, when he ask me a simple question, its really difficult for me to answer him. There's a few times where i feel like telling him "can you dont look at me when talking to me?" hahahaha!

During presentation, i am really prepared on what i am going to present later, but when i am presenting, everything go hay-wired in my mind when i saw him. And i have to "re-think" what i should say. That goes for me to be nervous again. Sucks sia! I try to take my eyes off him, but soon, he appear in my eyes again. haha.

For other modules, i can present much better. I feel more relaxing, so there is no worries for me. I really dont hope that this issue pulls down my grades.

And today, that FTCB crazy la! Ask me to turn 180 degree. If you want to make me pai seh, tell him straight la, i will pai seh in one go! haha. dont make me pai seh every one week! every stressing de lehz! Next time dont say things too obvious. I dont want him to know. I dont want that one day, he came to me and say "liling, concentrate on your studies and dont think about this kind of thing". It will be super duper embarrassing.

And you ah... Everytime joke with him i will jealous lehz.. lol.. But really thanks to you, for trying to ask more info about him, and i can know more about him too.. Next time ask more.. hahaha

I dont want to!.......

2007-05-11T20:36:00.000+08:00

Since FTCB request me to update my blog, i will just write anything to came through my mind...

Recently, i have been thinking about this issue.... W45M will break up after september, the first semester. This is really damn fucking system! I really really dont dont dont wanna too! I want to be with them forever!

Especially yiwen FTCB mishuelle farhanah sebas and so on... W45M is so fun to be with... Almost all of them are so hyperactive, playful, talkative, fun to be with.. especially FTCB the SCB lol... and yiwen mishuelle and farhanah are all nice friends to be with.

The whole class joke around and gossip around and laugh together. We eat together every breaks. (But FTCB only care to be with Sebas sia... Once break, the 2 crazy CB and YD will disappear out of sudden, and the volume of the class will drop from 10 to 5. wakaka)

We hao bu rong yi can from strangers( dont even talk to each other) to such close friends (always hanging around together in school) ... It is really a difficult task for me to accomplish this within 4 weeks. I really dont wanna go through this process again. W45M is enough. I have enough happiness for my RP life. I dont wanna go to the other class. Knowing this bunch of monkeys as friend is enough!

And i want to be in W45M! Continue to take same modules, with the same faci! =x I dont want to change class and take risk of changing new faci for that module! =x The probability of getting him to be my module's faci is 1/100+! !#&^!@&#^!(@&#^(!@.. lol.. kk.. i shall stop here..! Objection to RP class changing system la! let the class go on till year 2 ma! stupid sia RP!

Which Cartoon Character are you?

2007-05-01T18:46:00.000+08:00

Everyone has a personality of a cartoon character. Have you ever asked yourself what cartoon character do you most resemble?

1. Which one of the following describes the perfect date?

a) Candlelight dinner (4 pt.) b) Fun/Theme Park (2 pt.) c) Painting in the par k (5 pt.) d) Rock concert (1 pt.) e) Going to the movies (3 pt.)

2. What is your favorite type of music?

a) Rock and Roll (2 pt.) b) Alternative (1 pt.) c) Soft Rock (4 pt.) d) Country (5 pt.) e) Pop (3 pt.)

3. What type of movies do you prefer?

a) Comedy (2 pt.) b) Horror (1 pt.) c) Musical (3 pt.) d) Romance (4 pt.) e) Documentary (5 pt.)

4. Which one of these occupations would you choose if you only could choose one of these?

a) Waiter (4 pt.) b) Professional Sports Player (5 pt.) c) Teacher (3 pt.) d) Police (2 pt.) e) Cashier (1 pt)

5 . What do you do with your spare time?

a) Exercise (5 pt.) b) Read (4 pt.) c) Watch television (2 pt.) d) Listen to music (1 pt.) e) Sleep (3 pt.)

6. Which one of the following colors do you like best?

a) Yellow (1 pt.) b) White (5 pt.) c) Sky Blue (3 pt.) d) Dark Blue (2 pt.) e) Red (4 pt.)

7. What do you prefer to eat?

a) Snow (3 pt.) b) Pizza (2 pt.) c) Sushi (1 pt.) d) Pasta (4 pt.) e) Salad (5 pt.)

8 . What is your favorite holiday?

a) Halloween (1 pt.) b) Christmas (3 pt.) c) New Year (2 pt.) d) Valentine's Day (4 pt.) e) Thanksgiving (5 pt.)

9. If you could go to one of these places which one would it be?

a) Paris (4 pt.) b) Spain (5 pt.) c) Las Vegas (1 pt) d) Hawaii (4 pt.) e) Hollywood (3 pt.)

10. With which of the following would you prefer to spend time with?

a) Someone Smart (5 pt.) b) Someone attractive (2 pt.) c) Someone who likes to Party (1 pt.) d) Someone who always has fun (3 pt.) e) Someone very sentimental (4 pt.)

Now add up your points and find out the answer you have been waiting for!

(10-16 points) You are Garfield: You are very comfortable , easy going, and you definitely know how to have fun but sometimes you take it to an extreme. You always know what you are doing and you are always in control of your life. Others may not see things as you do, but that doesn't mean that you always have to do what is right. Try to remember, your happy spirit may hurt you or others.

(17-23 points) You are Snoopy: You are fun, you are very cool and popular. You always know what's in and you are never are out of style. You are good at knowing how to satisfy everyone else. You have probably disappeared for a few days more than once but you always come home with the family values that you learned. Being married and having children are important to you, but only after you have had your share of fun times.

(24-28 points) You are Elmo: You have lots of friends and you are also popular, always willing to give advice and help out a person in need. You are very optimistic and you always see the bright side of things. Some good advice: try not to be too much of a dreamer. Dreaming too big could cause many conflicts in your life.

(29-35 points) You are Sponge Bob Square Pants: You are the classic person that everyone loves. You are the best friend that anyone could ever have and never wants to lose. You never cause harm to anyone and they would never not understand your feelings. Life is a journey, it's funny and calm for the most part. Stay away from traitors and jealous people, and you will be stress free.

(36-43 points) You are Charlie Brown: You are tender, you fall in love quickly but you are also very serious about all relationships. You are a family person. You call your Mom every Sunday. You have many friends and may occasionally forget a few Birthdays. Don't let your passion confuse you with reality.

(44-50 points) You are Dexter: You are smart and definitely a thinker. Every situation is fronted with a plan. You have a brilliant mind. You demonstrate very strong family principles. You maintain a stable routine but never ignore a bad situation when it comes. Try to do less over thinking every once in a while to spice things up a bit with spontaneity!

And i got 24 points and i am elmo! T.T It says that i dreamt too much! Will cause conflict in my life! Should i stop thinking about him? Since there is no hope for me..! T.T But till now i haven dream of him before lor! haha.. i only think of him often... So...... continue continue.......

Telepathy to YOYO!

2007-04-28T23:06:00.000+08:00

YOYO! you very cruel lehz.. How can you always did bad thing to your master! your master treat you so good..! Your temper also very bad! CHANGE LEHZ! if you continue to be like this.. I scare one day my 2 hands all gone..!

You should be grateful to me lor! When you bite me i didnt tell my mama.. IF NOT YOU DIE AH! mama sure beat you up.. Slash you into pieces.. put you in a pot.. put water.. put seasoning... soya sauce.. pepper... chillies.. turn on fire... stir stir stir! eeeeeeeeeeeee... i wanna vomit.. dun say le..

Next time dun bite me la.. that time right index finger.. 2 holes.. you "ga ga ga ga ga" so many times.. today my left index finger... 4 holes.. you "ga ga ga ga ga ga ga ga ga ga ga ga" even more times.. wanna break liao la.. next time my hand tyco... i scare he see liao vomit, i pai seh.. lol!

Touch touch u nia you also not happy.. ! master not for you to bite de lehz.. is for you to play with..! you want bite you bite those bad guys la! those thief! Robber!! the more we treat you nice, the more you want to bite! dont put the theory "bite is love" on us lehz..!

I cant swear that the next time you bite again, if i am carrying a knife on my hand, i will not slash you.. I MAY! lol.. so next time be careful.. Dont choose a wrong timing..!

You must be happy that i didnt beat your mouth today! cause mama beside, i dont want her to know.. So i only bring you up to the room and make you stand on 2 legs for 20min! and lock you in the toilet for 30min!

Please.. understand.. we dunno how to teach you not to bite us... you must understand and know yourself please.. Next time throw u to SPCA then you know!

I can count how many times you have bitten me, your mama and your papa!

Me: around 5 times
your mama: around 8 times, Got a time you bite her lip! YOU DIDNT DIE BEFORE AH!
your papa: around 5 times also..

you think you own the house ah!? we good to bully ah!?

I love you so much.. please love me! i everytime hug you kiss you, cant u feel my love to you? lol.. My left index finger is still swollen.. so sad.. my hand disfigure liao la.. all your fault! you pig la!

RP(Republic Poly) was fun

2007-04-26T18:37:00.000+08:00

RP was fun.. i love the education system actually.. It's so relaxing... I feel that the time flies so fast.. lol.. its already 2 weeks and i feel like its just 3 or 4 days.. lol... Nice nice.. My classmates was so nice.. made so many friends.. At first i still scare that i wont be able to make much friends.. cause my dear friend hazel told me this "what!? u didnt go for the orientation how are you going to make friends!?" dont look down on me lehz.. lol.. i understand why la.. cause during sec sch time.. i am a very cool and quiet girl.. i "dont dare" to talk to strangers or even the guys in the school.. Actually its not that i dun dare lor.. its just that i dont think theres a need to.. LOL.. Hazel! you say who will want to give their hp no. to you so fast in the 1st week of school... LOOK! i got 3 no.s! Lol..

But in RP, i dont know why, i become very BRAVE and confident after the 1st day of school.. I start to go around chatting with my classmates.. and try my best to entertain my friends.. I really treasure friends alot, no matter new friends or "OLD" friends.. Lol.. hazel ange joey candy or sooo.. i still love you guys a lot, dont worry.. i wont forget you.. i know you guys love me.. thanks thanks.. lol.

After all, i must learn to be more sociable.. rather than hiding myself in the same old group like last time.. Hope i can continue to be more and more sociable.. cause next semester, new group of friends will be coming ... =.= T.T i dont want to seperate from my current friends!!! there are soooo good and nice to be with...! I dont know how many monsters will there be in my next class! =x

Blog Blog bloG...

2007-04-26T18:22:00.000+08:00

Since my dearrr cousin huihui loves to read my blog sooooo much.. i will take some times to type out some interesting things that you guys will be curious about..

I shall tell you guys a secret... currently, only my 2nd sister-in-law, my "niece" meiqi.. and my dear friend hazel knows about it..

I had fallen in love with a guy... Just met him a few times... and i shall say, "i had fallen in love with a wrong guy"... why do i say that? have you guys heard of "愛上不該愛的人?" he is a guy that i shouldnt be in love with. He's in RP, but i am not going to tell you more than that.. I even joined a IG(interest Group aka CCA) and hope to see him more.. And dont ask me what IG is that. There's time where i dont dare to see him too much, to avoid suspicion from others.. the feeling is so horrible.. And there's once that he hurt me so much that i dont feel like talking for a period.. Sad... But after he explained, i feel more relieved... Hope to see him more.. wakakaka.. miss him...

Think i can only stay in the dark and "peep" at him cause i can BET that, there wont be any chance for me..

My friends or classmate or whoever from RP.. I am not going to tell you who it is, NO MATTER WAD. So dont try come forcing me.. dont make me vomit blood.. lol.

Guess thats all for this.. if i say more, you will ask more.. so its best for me to stop here cause i do not want to let too much people know about this..

Bored! Sian! Angry! Sad!

2007-04-01T02:49:00.000+08:00

Time now: 2.50am
Currently awaiting for 5am to reach.. Go Shao Mu with my parent.. Sian! Maple so sian! O2Jam cant connect to server! no ppstream to watch! No other games to play! Nintendo DS lent my sis le! No things to eat so no mood to watch dvd show! Argh...

Sad! Yesterday papa say "you next time dun drive my car liao" to me!!! Shit him! he ask me to drive 1 year later! Shit him! He say wait this 1 year period dio dai ji i must re-test again wor... True la.. But 12 points so easy to demerit meh? haha.. Only Dash red light or speeding once will *gone* .. but i not so stupid go speed and dash red light ma.. what so worry about..
But he still allow me to drive when there is someone who knows to drive with me la.. but cannot drive alone.. I was really sad and angry.. i dont wanna talk to my father anymore.. I told myself, even next time u ask me to drive u home i also dun wan.. lol.. but today, i didnt keep this to my heart.. haha

The day before i just drive my mama to work in the early morning 5.40am (while my father was sleeping soundly) wakaka.. he got a spare key for his car at home.. so i can just take and drive anytime.. hehe.. when reach her workplace at jurong east central, she ask me to call her when i reach home.. but i heck care.. she her bo liao.. nothing to worry about.. haha.. then i drive home alone le.. FIRST time drive alone sia.. but okok la.. not that scary.. as per normal... when i reach home i park the car back to the original place.. i park at the place near the kerb and not to the parking lots..(parking lots full).. My father always park his vehicle super close to the kerb.. totally no gap.. So i try to keep close to the kerb also.. behind got a van so i try to park very cautiously.. it takes me 5min+ to park.. keep moving here and there.. open door see close enough ma.. get out of car once.. and when i was about to leave.. i see see again.. like not close enough lehz.. then i went back, on engine and try again.. LOL.. jio bo liao lehz.. finally parked up to my expectation.. took 5min.. while walking back home.. my mother called me.. ask me where am i.. i say i now at hospital.. then she scold me.. Lol.. she ask me why i didnt call her.. so i tell her i just reach home nia.. u so gan chiong for wad.. when i reach home, i still worry if other cars cant goes thru safely and knock dao my father car.. so i keep looking out the window.. and soon i went back to sleep.. too sleepy.. whole day no sleep.. later night when i wake up, my father dun seems to realise that i drove his car out before until my mother told him.. mmhz.. this shows that my parking is actually not bad la.. LOL.. buay hiao bai~

Today went to my sis house see amabel.. OMG! cannot ta han sia.. Amabel more and more cute and pretty.. Drools* Lend my sis nintendo ds.. she say tml will ask my father to bring home for me.. but i bet she will forget.. Lol.. nvm.. get it from her next time.. ate shark fins and salted fish fried rice.. the shark fins still got left 1 or 2 bowls so i think of taking it away and give my sis eat.. end up reach her house, she dun wan.. she say not hot dont want to eat.. lol.. shark fins also dun wan.. very hou mia.. Lol.. jkjk.. So i bring him give xiao ai eat.. I drove my father and mother home again.. My father ask me to drive.. he say he drinks.. i already on the back seats and they dont wanna get into the car.. then i bo bian.. come out and take the driver seat.. My mother damn scare.. lol.. She was actually very sleepy.. but when the car was about to set off, she told me that she dont dare to sleep le.. LOL... but i know she will definitely fall asleep.. But still even she is damn sleepy and fall asleep, she still do wake up suddenly and stare at me whole way home.. She really look at me almost 70% of the trip.. lol.. Afterall, this is the first time i drive her from tiong bahru to jurong.. such a long trip.. about 15min-20min.. still must go thru expressway wor.. she of cox abit bu fang xin.. that time drive her to work only need 5min and its near turn right turn left go straight turn right turn left... reach le.. lol.. easy.. so still ok.. My father is the 3rd time i drive him home from tiong bahru to jurong, and he was a driver too, so he not that scare.. he just scare that i speed bah.. cause the 1st time i drive him home my speed "accidentally" went up to 100+.. lol..

finally reach home.. this time i park parallelly to the kerb again.. but take only 1 or 2 min.. one go ok... yay! but till now.. i didnt really tried vertical parking on my own.. my father keep wanna snatch to park for me.. i cant learn either.. now worse.. he didnt even want me to drive his car only after 1 year later! So how i learn parking wor.. dont care le.. next time drive secretly.. wont get caught by police also.. wahahaha..

Yay... 3.18am le.. still got 1hour 42min to go.. what to do lehhhhh.....???

Yoyo New Video - New Stunts! haha

2007-03-16T10:23:00.000+08:00

hehe.. haven bath since last week~ just finish drinking water so face wet wet~

A Successful Step To My Plan!

2007-03-09T01:51:00.000+08:00

Woot~ Finally i get a place in poly... Left one more month to slack.. hehe.. Been posted to Republic Poly Diploma in Business Computing. I have confidence that it will be a good course for me... But i heard alot of ppl saying rp is a lousy school.. hope it is not so.. Ppl have not tried Rp before.. they just think Rp is lousy cause it is a new school.. everything is new especially the lecturers.. mostly new and inexperienced.. See how bah.. maybe its another way round..

After that.. 3 years later after i graduate.. the next thing to do is to apply for a junior police officer post in SPF again.. Hope everything will go smoothly and successfully.. Maybe by then.. mama papa will retire everything and stay at home to enjoy.. then i will work hard as police.. wakakkaka..

Gogo Jia you Ka Yau がんばる！

What you are thinking is wrong!

2007-03-01T21:00:00.000+08:00

i just want to apply a dog license for yoyo.. So that yoyo will be recognised.. as in, not treated as stray dog. Or if anything happen, police found out that yoyo dont have a license, yoyo will not be caught away and had to fine us $500.. $70 a year to exchange a safe..

Yes.. i understand its quite expensive, So i suggest to sterilise her.. But u will say what... "you want to sterilise her meh?" with a innocent and sad face... or you want is her baby.. or thru her baby, you may earn some money... thats a stupid thinking... although i ever thought that if yoyo would have babies.. it is real nice.. but i dont mind her to be sterilise and cant give birth either.. but all you hope is to get babies from yoyo.. suggested to sterilise her and you will start giving those face.. i really dont know what to say...

if you wan... i can pay for it.. or even ask papa to pay for the $70 a year.. but provided yoyo is going to stay with us... and not together with u... i really scare one day yoyo will become a tool for you to obtain puppies...

Do you ever understand the fact that yoyo will be weaker and may die much earlier if she gave birth? a normal sterilised shih tzu can live for 15 years.. yet a mother shih tzu can only live for 6 or 7 years.. you she de meh? everytime when my bro say wanna sell away this useless yoyo last time and buy other dog, you say you she bu de.. but i dont think so...

$70 a year.. one month is only $5.80! 1 day is only 10 cent! you say this exp!!!? then i dont think you can afford to support yoyo... you better give up on her... i will take care of it.. i got $6 a day.. i dont mind making some effort to put a 10 cent coin into a piggybank everyday until i get $70 the next year... if i have mistaken you that you heard it was $70 a day.. i am really sorry.. but this is impossible.. you had heard it was $70 A YEAR! please.. think of it.. if you really cant afford 10 cent a day.. then sterilise yoyo... dont need to think of what babies.. its only 0.3cent a day.. $14 a year... even if u wan babies, 1 year $70.. you can earn $300-500 for each baby.. take it as 4 babies.. you got around $2000.. everything is back.. and you even earn back her food expense..

Think... think... think... girl.. this is not china.. is Singapore.. everything go by law.. $500 fine.. you think it worth to take a risk and challenge the law? $500=7 years of $70 per year.. think! i really hope someone can help talking to her about this.. convince her with my theory..

Apply a license for her... in your own will.. dont because i say then u apply.. dont because you dont wanna disappoint me.. i really hope you understand this and agree with me...

My Trip to Ah Ma House 2...

2007-03-01T19:34:00.000+08:00

After that... we finally get to eat.. my bro went home first to sleep.. then my father.. then left my mother and me.. i was all the while waiting for them to gamble.. lol.. but it dragged for about 1hr.. finally i get to gamble..

A cute little 11 months baby boy was there.. he was my nephew.. and i dont get his name.. whether is edison or anson or wadever.. and chinese name is zhuo卓 wen溫 or zhuo卓 en恩.. but he is real cute and handsome little baby..

i have been trying to play with him.. at first he would just ignore me.. maybe cause he dont know me well.. after that.. we get along and play together.. he finally laugh and laugh.. So cute.. i had finally win his heart.. lol.. and when i wanna try to carry him.. he allowed! so happy.. so i carried him.. i dont dare to carry amabel cause she look so tiny.. i scare my force was too hard for her and hurt her.. how i hope my little nephew and my little niece amabel will get along well next time when they grow up and play together... at least they have playmate.. and their age were close..

Trip to Ah Ma House...

2007-03-01T18:41:00.000+08:00

today morning 10am+ went to my deceased ah ma house with my elder bro... cause today is ah ma 1 year anniversary. i haven sleep since 28th feb 6pm... actually i am to be sleeping at that time.. but i would love to go there to chou re nao.. So i ta han-ed.. me and my bro were very hungry.. those food arent ready yet only until after around 12pm..

During that waiting period.. A very unexpected thing happened.. My dearest Aunt, she suddenly take out her hp.. "i show you something very funny".. i saw her pressing her hp from menu to file manager and i thought she will wanna try the application "Face Warp" (available to some sony ericsson phones.. example mine: w850i.. hers is dunno what model de..but i think is SE too..) but she didnt... she continued to the Video folder.. then i tot.. she must be showing me some boring funny show.. or cute baby video.. BUT ITS NOT!..

*Click*** she played the video for me and pass me her phone.. the first scene i saw what a totally naked woman..(it is a animation or cartoon).. i was shocked! i didnt expect she will show me this kind of video.. she ask me not to speak out so loud abit about it.. and not to show my bro who was sitting beside me.. ok.. i continue watched...

mMhz.. maybe i should just say out the content or should i not? haha.. you decide bah...

interested? Highlight the paragraph/s between "***" and "******".....

i really dont want to remember but... or i had already somehow forgotten it.. mmhz.. i will try my best to recall..

those under 18.. please dont try to view it and say that i let you see this kind of thing.. Above 18.. i think you are mature enough to see what i wrote.. haha.. but dont think i am dirty or wad.. haha.. those 16-18.. since 16 is free to sex already.. then its your choice.. but best if you not.. Dont blame me or my blog if something bad happened to you.. hehe

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The woman was going to sleep naked.. there was 5 or 6 very very little drawfs( about 5cm tall or so only) **bare in mind.. its a cartoon.. not real..** they doped a sleeping pill or so into that woman drink.. she drank it before going to sleep.. So she just lie on her bed.. sleeping soundly without knowing anything.. Actually it seems that there are alot of conversations in the video but my aunt told me not to on it loud..(my ah ma house got alot of ppl at the moment).. so i didnt really heard their conversations(i mean those drawfs').. but my aunt still somehow explains whats going on..

their actions started... a drawf jump up onto that woman body and go to her breast.. he pull her nipple very high... then those drawfs went down to her virgina.. and start cutting her hair.. then they start observing.. then 2 drawfs went to open that woman virgina very wide.. and the rest put their real tiny little sausage into the girl virgina and start doing... then dunno why.. they threw a little drawf into her virgina.. and that drawf went in to explore.. lol... then those drawfs outside try to pump a drawf's dick into real big to fit the size of the woman's.. and it start making.. then the scene goes to the drawf inside the woman's virgina.. the dick went in and out... getting faster and faster.. and the spearm flow and flow and almost drowned the drawf inside.. then i forget le... LOL.. i think its about the end..
******

I didnt expect her to show me this.. maybe she knows that i am already grown up and it is alright to see this.. its really ok actually.. i just didnt expect her showing this to me.. as i always thought those relative will always treat me like a 10 or 12 year old kid.. haha..

An Unfortunate Day...

2007-02-27T16:45:00.000+08:00

Today something bad happen during my driving lesson..

For those who know.. when the instructor tap the car front, we learner must do an emergency brake.. while i was driving in the circuit... i somehow saw the instructor tap the front.. i saw her hand movement and i heard the loud "tap".. so i immediately do a emergency brake. but the instructor didnt get hold of it and knock his head on the mirror on top of the left front seat.. i was shocked.. he asked me why i suddenly emergency brake... so i told him that i thought he asked for an e.brake. but he say he did not.. he just wan to get my report slip from the front..

So sad.. i felt so guilty and upset that i wanna cry.. but i didnt.. at that time... its already 5min before the lesson end.. didnt expect such thing happen.. everything was so smoothly at first..

All my fault.. Stupid girl go gey kiang.. the rest of the 5min.. i dont dare to look at him and talk much.. i keep saying sorry and he say its ok.. i know its pain.. he keep "so-ing" his head... and he look so... SCARY. look like very angry.. he is very quiet after that.. When other instructor greet him or smile with him.. he didnt react much.. usually he will say Hi and joke around.. alot of things to say de.. but the last 1 or 2min.. he regained as normal.. talk to me about lessons and ask me questions.. but i know... he still seems to be angry with me.. he thinks i am stupid.. T.T

till now.. i am still feeling so guilty and sad.. haiz..dunno how to face him the next lesson.. 2 more lessons to go.. hope the next 2 lessons de instructor is not him... T.T

A fortunate day...

2007-02-25T00:23:00.001+08:00

23th febuary 2006: i sent him a happy birthday message... didnt expect much though.. i mean i didnt expect him to remember who i am... And of course i sent a birthday greeting to another pig also.. if not he say i unfair..

this is what i sent him: " Happy birthday dude.. in case you dont know who i am.. you dont need to know who i am though.. lol"

He replied!.. he says ty and he know i am liling.. just as i am going to reply him "okay,np" he sent me another msg.. : how do you do now?

i thought it is going to end just like that.. but it didnt..

and we sms here and there... And i get to know more info about him..

he applied for poly this year... woohoo.. same batch as me.. didnt regret resting one year!.. lol.. jkjk.. and because he failed english again.. he applied republic poly engineering courses.. haha.. tot i will have a chance to be with him in the same course same class, but cant le.. (i didnt apply rp de engineering course) but nvm.. at least can be in the same sch... my first 4 choices are all rp courses.. lol.. But cant be happy that early too.. it was not confirmed if i can get into rp or polys though..

But really hope i can get into rp with him.. create more bond.. lol.. but maybe he will have his own group of frenz.. and me have another group..

i dont know if i still like him... i tot it was the end already.. i didnt expect much from him already.. even as friends.. i didnt even expect him to treat me as frenz.. i tot he will just forget me just like that.. or even dont wanna befriend me.. i really scare that..

hope when get into poly.. we can at least continue to be fren...

And! 23th feb is Yoyo's vaccination day! yet i forget.. T.T lucky my bro recalled and bought yoyo for vaccination while i am still in my dream.. T.T didnt wake me up! i hate you!

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK &#^$#$^!(@*&#

2007-02-16T00:24:00.000+08:00

WAH LAU EH! DONG BUAY DIAO LIAO LA! dont know how to cut still cut cut cut! you know you cut till very ugly! hao hao de pretty little yoyo let u cut till i wanna vomit.. you nv once cut till nice..

i know you think good for yoyo..

1) cut her legs and paws furs.. reason: so that she will not slip that easily..
my ans: please la.. our floor is marble floor(or whatever which is originally slippery). you cut or no cut no difference.. she still will slip.. her meatball is not made of rubber =.=

2) cut her face fur..
my ans: thats fine for me actually.. you can cut the fur that is covering her eyes.. i dont mind actually.. but at least cut nicer.. anyway.. SHE JUST WENT GROOMING NOT MORE THAN 1 MONTH AGO! her fur is not that long actually!

3) cut her BODY hair.. reason: i dont know why also... and no reason for you to cut..
my ans: erm... you think you professional? she will just use the scissor to cut 1 line across. she didnt cut evenly and equally.. unlike professional fur trimmer.. they use professional tools.. and yoyo body fur length is just 2 cm or 3 cm or so.. cause just went for grooming.. why to bother to cut? You scare she too hot ah? Other shih tzu owner let their shih tzu fur to grow till 10cm 20cm long or until ground.. means they cruel? abusing dog? they wont feel hot so easily la.. and somemore she always in air con room with us.. and she is always sneezing lor.. dong buay diao you..

Now i see yoyo i wanna vomit ah! dog not look like dog.. let u cut till like alien..

Hope you really sees all this message and just shut up.. dont come talk to me about this.. i dont bother to talk to you.. i am just telling you.. listen or not is your choice..

My New Year Plan..

2007-02-13T06:53:00.000+08:00

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I was just worrying that there wont be as much people at ah ma house anymore.. so sad... i wanna cry.. not because that i will get lesser ang bao... because there wont be that much to gamble with me whole night whole day... I scare no one going ah ma house anymore.. Not much ppl smiling at me.. introducing me.. Saying that how i am when i was young.. So Cute and good girl! lol.. Or perhaps... "Ai ya! This is liling ah! Grow up so big liao! SLIM DOWN LIAO WOR! FACE SHARPER LIAO WOR! TALLER LIAO LE!... AIYO! SO PRETTY!.." (lol.. bhb) Dua gor, Li gor, Sa gor, ying shan ying hao they all.. All my cousins.. nephews and nieces, meiqi weilun guolun yongcai yongan yongzheng.. will they be going anymore? Ya.. they will go to Dua mmh house.. but they will go to ah ma house? and who will indeed pei me go to ah mmh house? even got ppl pei me go.. i also abit pai seh to go.. but ah ma house.. i wont.. cause i once live there for 11 years. ah mi(which once i call, now dont dare to call le) hui hui i know they will go.. but just we all is not fun.. and not forgetting ah ngor ah hun adeline chuchu shuang shuang ming li ming hui they all... i know they will go to li mmh house.. but.... Aiya.. dont know why... i just got a feeling that it wont be a nice and fun new year anymore.. Sad... AND ONE MORE THING! most of them sure all run away to play mahjong and left me out! and when i want to play.. they will #*&@#^@*#! play play with me ma.. play small small also can.. if i dont know.. teach me pls.. but not make me throw face.. Lol.. tell me which card to throw, and not i throw liao then scold me stupid.. LOL.. i know i still a beginner... but beginner also need face.. LOL.. next time i wanna win all of you! win big money! then you guys will xin fu kou fu! lol..

Oh ya.. this is troubling me since i was 12 or 13 after we left ah ma house .. whenever i saw one of my relative ... my heart will **^&;*@^^#&@*.. it seems like they dislike me since i was young.. i remember is like they scare i will teach adeline they all bad.. i know i was very bad last time.. but those words you guys say is really very hurting you know? I just cant recall what you guys really said that time.. But i know they were just some very hurting comments.. it seems like she dont like her daughters they all to get close to me.. But can you answer me... What BAD THINGS had i taught them? no right? they are so guai.. result so good.. speak good english..(at that time, now i not sure).. Do you need to say till so.......

Maybe all this while, i am having a wrong thinking.. if it is.. i am really very sorry.. but if its not.. i really depise you.. you should be 30+ at that time. And i am just a immature young kid.. what do you expect me to be? a perfectionist? even a prodigy may do something wrong or once disobey their parent.. Teach is what you need to do.. and not just giving hurting comment and do nothing.. I am really very angry and sad at that time.. it seems like everytime if i wanna play with adeline they all.. all i am doing is just doing secretly.. when you are at work? if i am not wrong..

When i was young.. i am really scared of you.. When you chatted or commented me.. it seems like you are spreading some evil aura to me.. And with those evil witchy smile.. which make me dont even dare to see you.. But now... Do you think i will still afraid of you?

lol.. hope she wont saw this.. i am just trying to get rid of my anger. but i bet she wont see.. even she knows how to use com.. and a small chance that she BLOGGED! it wont be possible that she will even care to read my blog to know about me..

Backie!

2007-02-13T06:33:00.000+08:00

Know why i didnt blog for so long? Cause a person like me wont have much interesting and fun event happening.. Just a slacker... And when there is finally something happening again so that i am blogging now here.. its again all about Louis Koo! Wakakaka.. He came to Singapore again to promote "Protege" with Daniel Wu.. Both of them are handsome. I also get to get his signature(and daniel wu's) on a "Anti-drug" T-Shirt bought at $15 with a goodie bag...(Member's privilege).. Nvm.. At least i get to see louis(and daniel) more closely again.. And AGAIN! I forgot to shake louis's hand! Just like 5 years ago! Shit! Too nervous to see them.. One funny thing happen again.. I only concentrate on Louis whereby after that then i know that Daniel was looking at me smiling already. Its like i only get to see him smiling at me after i take my eyes off Louis. I just stared at them for 3 sec after they signed on my t-shirt, which i should have used that 3 sec to shake their hand! What a waste!

Anyway... it seems like i am a crazy fans right? I also dont know if i am.. But when i am with the fans club.. i was like the most calm and quiet one.. i dont craze around.. Think i am just the kind who are trying to kill time by doing things i seldom do... hehe.. But true speaking.. going to see louis 3 times with the fans club is a fun experience...i finally know the wei li of those crazy fans(they are not louis fans club members.. the fans club member is rather calm and dont craze as well.. just laughing smiling around, taking photos..) Especially those china fans! F*** them! Go back china chase him la.. Shouting here and there and pushing around...

Guess i shouldnt continue this kind of crazy topic.. will bored you all to death.. and may even make hazel this girl have a view change of me.. I dont hope she dislike me cause i "chased idol" just like me loving "GASHBELL!" wakakakkakaa...

Louis, Rene, Rain... 18/1-19/1

2007-01-20T00:22:00.000+08:00

Met 3 idols in 2 days time.. Louis Koo, Rene Liu, Rain... Difficult to digest.. lol.. Rene and Rain is not my main objective to go there... Louis! so handsome... 18 jan.. 10+pm went to changi airport terminal 2 to see louis and rene... Then after that 11+pm went to terminal 1 to see Rain.. Rain one was damn crowded.. =.= Too bad.. i didnt manage to take any photos or videos.. Nvm.. The picture of the scene was recorded in my mind.. lol.. My bro wife say Louis is so dao.. all the way a sad and down face to the car.. but Rain is so 热情, keep smiling and waving.. Actually is because Louis's eyes swollen.. and abit not feeling well.. But on 19th.. Louis still try his best to be active and funny... wakaka.. he is so cute.. not a cool man at all.. he is only cool when he got nothing to talk.. but he is actually very funny... but suddenly, something happened! That stupid host cum DJ Liyi accidentally call him 古巨基.. so.... he abit angry.. not sure if he is really angry.. but he suddenly become quiet and hide behind and start drawing.. Liyi talk to him he also dun reply.. got game for fans but he refuse to play. Lol. Maybe he is just acting.. who knows?

Anyway.. I SHOOK HAND WITH LOUIS! candy too.. Thanks to me man.. i am the first to ask for hand shaking.. if not he will just walk away le.. wahahahaha.... hope i can go for the reunion dinner at hk on 27th jan to have dinner with louis.. wakakkaka

Still cant forget. Sorry girl.

2007-01-10T05:20:00.000+08:00

Just now browse through his friendster, Saw a photo of him with 2 girls(i think is his sisters?). He is smiling happily with the 2 girls. When i saw his pic, dunno why, i cant take my eyes off him. Slowly, i start to feel happy and smile. Although he already rejected me long ago, but i still cant forget him. Even his best friend asked me to forget him, i have tried.. but everytime i saw anything related to him, i will start to think alot.

And hazel, i have kept this in my heart for very long le. but to be fair, i think i should tell you. Actually when you stead with your bf, i still dunno you have bf. then when the first time we 4 go out together after you are attached, you guys keep mentioning about ivan ivan ivan. Then i feel abit weird, i really dunno what you all talking about. In my mind, i still thinking if that ivan you guys are mentioning is that hk ivan. So my heart start to feel abit pricky. Then slowly, i know that your bf is called ivan. actually that time i abit angry why i was not told anything about you and ivan. Must i find out myself de wor. No one have told me you got bf. Then after that.. everytime i go out with you all, sometimes i heard you all say "ivan lau ivan lau". Then i was shocked! Ivan lau? got so coincidence ma? then i tell myself, "nono, i think you guys are saying "ivan lor or ivan la!".. then slowly, i viewed your blog, you mentioned "ivan lau".. then i know that, wah! is really ivan lau. his surname is also lau. gam kiu gar! My heart start to feel pricky again. then everytime when you guys talk about your ivan, my heart will feel itchying. every xin ku lehz. Stil must act dao nothing. I know they are 2 different person, but whenever i heard that name, i will start to think of him. Hazel, dont misunderstood me. i wont like him de. i just wanna let you know how i feel. Wait next time you really thought i like him. Cause everytime when you mentioned ivan, i really got nothing to say. i dont know what to talk about. But i got try, to not show out. Try to talk with you all about ivan, join in you guys in the topic.

Anyway, dont think that hk ivan lau is ivan anymore. He like to change christian name very much. lol. just that when i know him, he is called ivan, so when i heard ivan this name i will anyhow think le.

Haiz.. already long ago de thing le. We also didnt contact anymore, i also dont wanna talk much le. i bet we wont have chance to meet again le. and it is impossible for him to like me. Dunno why i can like him for 5 years. I should be angry! that he rejected me. lol. Although i am not what pretty girl but i am so good! haha. Wai zho nei, ngor dou hok sai D kwong dong wah le! jkjk. Last time me one bit also dont understand what you guys talking. lol

LTF! zok nei hou wan!

ngor yi kah zhong yi MIU KIU WAI! Michael miu i love you!

Spoiler!

2007-01-10T05:05:00.000+08:00

No mood liao la! Everything plan hou hou liao your few words "i think i dont want to go le" spoil everything. Long ago dont want to say, now then say. Spoil my mood. u dont go, he dont go, then left 4 person go. then that pig say want go with his wife jiu hao. me lehz? go england la. dont need come back liao. Sian half. Have been longing to travel oversea, end up like this. i want to go casino gamble de lehz! Forget it, dont want go anywhere le. Rot at my room. Die in front of this laptop. Mama also. Hope you this whole life dont have chance to travel! People around me all can go oversea with family why i cant! I got.. Malaysia ma.. =.= I TAKE 160 ALSO CAN GO! ngor yiu cho fei gay gar! go indonesia also cant! thailand also cant! thinking can go for cruise also not bad. now even take ship go malaysia also cant! What the fuck is this family? what is family love? can someone tell me? i cant feel on my own. Next time when i earn more money i migrate to hong kong or japan forever, dont come back anymore! Its enough in Singapore!

hehe.. got from my sis's blog!

2006-12-28T23:00:00.000+08:00

You Fking Asshole

2006-12-25T12:16:00.000+08:00

TOH BOON TIONG u knn fking asshole! Next time night you dont come back la! Jiajia DA SAO you next time go oversea bring him along.. If not you dont go at all please.. This 2 days ah! Drink 1 bottlle tiger beer in my room each day.. first day still eat my cuttlefish and Japanese Crispy Seaweed. Like that still nvm ah.. HE DONT CLEAN DE LOR! Hey.. My Room lehz.. Even if he will clean the next day when he wake up, but it is very.. er xin lor.. like sleeping in garage. Next time if he like that again i use the tiger beer bottle knock his head. AND dont let him watch 賭場風雲 liao! Even you pay me $35 i also dun rent for you! Blehz!

Anyway.. Yesterday go eat my shark fins le.. Wah pro lehz.. i yesterday eat only, today my ulcers recover le.. not fully, but at least not that pain.. wakkaka so happy!

Testing 1 .. 2... 3...

2006-12-24T23:24:00.000+08:00

Stupid me...

2006-12-14T22:46:00.000+08:00

yesterday yoyo shh shh on my room when i sleeping so i punish her.. they we fight.. i slap her butt, slap her face then she angry so try to bite me.. she open her mouth and i slap her mouth but my finger hit her teeth so injured.. got a blood clot in my finger. my meat is not yet "break" so no blood come out. But the pain at the blood clot is kinda irritating.. i think maybe is the blood cant rush out (like got wall block it) ,can feel a weird pain. Somemore the clot very ugly. like red pen ink stick on my finger,cant wipe off like that, So i think of using the needle and poke the blood clot to let the blood come out. then wont have the red dot inside. but when i use the needle and poke, sian sia.. poke wrong place.. didnt touch the clot. slightly abit out of place. but i dun care.. i try and squeeze the blood out, maybe the clot will also gone. but didnt. So i try again and poke inner abit through the previous hole, but the clot still didnt flow out..

mMhz.. After that thinking of it.. How could the blood clot flow out since it is already clotted? haha

Me and Yoyo de Xue Guang Zhi Zai (血光之災)

2006-12-07T18:47:00.000+08:00

morning i left yoyo in room and close the door. After 5min when i return back i open the door and saw a pile of shit being giap over by the door.(Whenever we put yoyo in the toilet and close the door, she will do all her business inside. Maybe she tot the room is toilet =.= T.T) i very angry sia. Pig lehz she! then i try my best clean clean and clean. Clear the shit, wipe the floor, then next is clear the shit sticked under the door. when i cleaning it, piak! my thumb scrab against the door and that finger surface part where my nail holded onto the meat PIAK, break. then start to bleed. Then later dunno why, feel abit dizzy.(not because too much lost of blood leh, also dunno why), then i lie on bed awhile rest rest then i continue to clean. This is my 血光之災.

Next is Yoyo de. I bring her go grooming. Go there, throw her there. went back home, after 3 hours, go back fetch her.(full grooming need some time de, somemore got alot people) Put yoyo on leash and walk her home. On the way suddenly my thumb bleed again.got an amount of the size of 1 housefly. haha. I dunno what to do. No tissue also. So i had no choice but to lick it away. Wakakaka. Actually wanna reach home le. But very gao wei. When i lick, i forgot that i previously applied antiseptic liquid le. So..... eeee... the taste is more suckz than blood. When we reach home, i bath, Yoyo see my bath. hehe. then when i am changing, i left yoyo in room. When i finish, i go back room find yoyo, end up, Whole floor of Blood! (lol, too kua zhang, kinda alot patches of tiny blood, not alot). So i very gan chiong, i started to search around Yoyo see got any wound. At first i thought she had mense, but i check le dun have. Then i see my thumb, if is mine touched yoyo's body and gor dio floor(沾到地上). But not lehz. Then soon, i found where the blood came from. From Yoyo's Toe meat! The groomer dunno how to cut de sia! Cut yoyo toe nail until bleed! At first i applied a balm cream which heal wounds and cuts specially for dogs and cats. But i still abit bu gan xin so i call the pet shop and ask. Then they say this kind of things is very common.alot of dogs all try before. Then he ask me to use the xiang lu hui (香爐灰), apply some on the wound to stop the bleed. Then i HUH!? cause i didnt try before. I scare wait got problems happen to yoyo. But nvm lor, since he say so, then i follow. i go down to dua bei gong, pray pray, then take some and apply on yoyo toe nail. After 1 or 2 min only, the bleeding really stopped. mMhz.. actually ok la.. i not very angry also. actually before that when i am at home waiting for yoyo to finish grooming, the pet shop got call and he say that his boss was bitten by Yoyo. Lols. Wonder if the boss issit en jiang chou bao. haha take revenge.

A good mama papa she have

2006-12-01T03:27:00.000+08:00

Just now i read my cousin hui hui's blog and saw that she is sick. Although its late, but still wish that you have a healthy life forever.

What i wanna say is, after reading that post, finding out that she has such a good mama and papa, i am happy for her. I not saying my mama and papa not good la. At least they give me money and feed me full full(i not mean they really hold on to a bowl and a spoon and feed me la) and buy whatever things i want. But i think that, all is about money. Not like huihui, their parent can put down their work and 全心全意 take care of her you know!? so good. My mama papa only care about their work. I really think that they have earned enough for rest of their life le bah? cause just take some leaves and rest and relax? especially mama. haiz.. i know they good. want to earn more money for me. Even my sis baby is born, yet no one is free to take care. i think she should give up on her part time job and help take care. haha. Or her main job also, since she has already reached her retire age. Papa work can le ma! and dun gamble and waste money. Mama be full time housewife also not bad. I also wanna find a work and earn money. but also must find a job of my interest than i can last ma.. wont 3 min hot degree. I really hope mama papa and help and support my interest (be police). I already had my plan.

But why cant i have a good and harmonious family like TV dramas? Dont think that TV shows are all dramatic and unrealistic. They also teach me alot of 人生道理 which i dont know. They are all based on true informations and stories and also things that really happens before. I also hope that i have a parent that really cares of me more than work. see huihui's papa mama. When i went to hospital when i was sec 4, did they ever stay with me for more than half a day in hospital? all rather go to work.
When i am very anxious about my health condition, how anxious are they? I ever suspect that i have what illness or what, and always hope to do a full health body check up, But did they care? i told my mother before "i suspect i got disease". My mother reply was "who ask you to always anyhow eat those useless things". I know, if i really have disease, i am in fault also. But what i wanna hear from her is "really? tomorrow better bring you go check up" or at least "tml i give u money you go do check up". I request my mother that i wanna do a full body checkup and she replied "me also so long didnt go for check up le you go for what" =.=

Haiz.. really feel sadded with this kind of family. They are really a good parent in some way though, but i really feels that they had used a wrong way to teach children.
I really think that if they could spend more times and teach me and accompanied me like those drama shows, i will turned out to be a better and good girl now. Lucky still got TV to teach me, if not i sure go stray. Next time you will find me in jail or girl's home rather than working in police station. I prefer to be the Good than the Bad. So i hope my family is Good and not bad.

Boyfriend? - To find the one i really love or one that loves me?

2006-12-01T02:49:00.000+08:00

You guys think lehz?

Last month or last last month, i went to IRC cause wanna ask something. So went to #teens and #teen, cause alot people de ma. But you guys should experience alot of boring people talking to you. Since i nothing to do also so entertain them abit. Obviously all wanna meet pretty girls and find gf de ma..

I met a guy, mMhz.. he not bad also... not like those kind of guys that only love sexy and pretty girls. But i got a feeling that he just want a gf and try out? But he really quite good la.. knows to 討好 girl. And i think he is a very hardworking guy. Always study, and got ambition and goal. Dont think he is those kind that cheat on girls. Went out with him a few times le, Saw him, nerd nerd study kind. Avg looking. Shy. Quiet. Everything i talk. =.= only money he pay. LOL. But i wont cheat his money la. everytime i wanna pay him back but he rejected. Only successfully paid him back once or twice.

But true speaking, i really dont know if i really loves him. But he says he really loves me. He had asked me to be his gf for a few times le. But i keep rejecting him, saying that when he earn 50k then i be his gf. LOL.

Anyway, he is really a good guy, but also have negative points too. Like over sensitive. And abit useless. that time went to play pool with him, ask him go over to the counter and book he say he dun want, he dunno how. Very wad lehz. But later, he explained that he not dun dare to book, and not useless, next time sure show that he is not. And also, i hate that every time when he msg me, and i didnt reply cause i busy doing other thing, he will send a message again and say "sorry.." blah blah blah. i was thinking, when did i ever angry? and i told him many times that i didnt reply because i dun wan to reply. But still he still keep making the same mistake. This is what i dun really like about him. But over all i gave him 8/10. haha

You guys must be thinking.. "eee.. irc. not serious de.. play play de.. like anyhow find 1 stead. too enthu to find boy girl frenz.." actually i also think so.. LOL. last time i have tried puppy love a few times le.. So i tell myself, Next time, i wanna find a serious and worthy and safe de. But again.. this time is IRC kind.. =.= Although we had met a few times and start to know each other more le, but i still scare ppl will think i childish.

Anyway, he also kinda funny. everytime talk about our future. what want bring me to his family let them see.. OMG please la.. me also not his gf yet. lol. He even told his sister about me le.. haha. But all this really makes me feel that he is those that just wanna anyhow find a gf and marry. Thats all.. hahas.. Haiz.. dunno what to do.. i have been observing him for quite a time le. Continue observing? Maybe next time i really fall in love with him. haha. I am trying to give him chance also.. like meet him more and let us know more about each other.

But true speaking, i still haven forget the guy i love before in sec sch for 5 years, who had already rejected me.

Na.. Huihui, this topic interesting enough for you to read le gua? haha. Always ask me to blog, say my blog interesting. You also must blog when free..

Xiao Ke Ai

2006-12-01T02:38:00.000+08:00

Xiao Ke Ai is a very cute and handsome and good and kind and guai hamster. Unlike the other hamsters of mine, He wont bite and wont give trouble to me. He always lick my little finger. Unless he was shocked. I love him the most. Everytime play with him. But recently, i read info about hamster then i realise that hamster cant be stressed. like always carry him and play, or put him in pocket or plastic bag which sometimes i will did.everytime i put him in pocket or plastic bag, he will shit alot. haiz.. really regret. i believe xiao ke ai can live much longer de.. maybe 3 or 4 years. But last week 21st November 2006, He passed away in his sleep. 享年 2 years 11 months. i also not very confirmed about how long. but i remember is 2004 between october- december that we bought him. Haiz.. Rest In Peace my dear.

Anyway, Yoyo 1 year old le. counting from 1st november 2005. But Yoyo is when 1 month+ old then follow us de. So cute at that time. look so much like pure shih tzu (she was a pure shih tzu =.=) but now.. the colour all faded. hahas.. Luckily she hasnt had any illness under my hand. Like the hamsters i took care last time. leg and hand rotton, until need operation. T.T and in the end, cant ta han and passed away. sadded.

Hope Yoyo can 長命百歲! 20 years old! lol.. but i think impossible.. cause shih tzu can live till 6 or 7 years old only? dunno hear from where.. lol

Testing for my sis.. Amabel cute though.. so not deleting.. hehe

2006-11-08T03:52:00.000+08:00

Joey Joey Joey....

2006-10-29T08:35:00.000+08:00

Joey.. This thing has been troubling me for quite a long time le.. That day when we go out to buy ange present.. Are you angry with me? and still angry with me? Actually i was just thinking to buy present for ange and i go le.. But since already with you all and i also not in rush, so should spend more time with you all.. love chatting with you all and listen to your stories.. haha. But it seems like you searching for your own thing and not buying present for ange.. Actually nvm one la.. i know you guys love shopping.. So i wait until you all bought Ange present then i go lor. then walk a few hours liao i start to sian liao.. even though already bought 1.. but you all still thinking of buying another, so i continue to pei you all.. since it is ange present, must walk walk see see and buy ma.. but seems like you are more into looking for your own short. haha. 5 min and 5 min and another 5 min past, i am still finding a chance to leave le, cause tired le i wanna go home and sleep le.. before that i sleep very little only.. i was thinking.. aiya nvm awhile more.. think she is going to buy.. then awhile more you still not happy with that price/short.. then i think aiya nvm.. soon soon.. next shop sure buy, then we can go home together le. but you still thinking to go back to previous shop. Actually that time i already thinking to go at 4.30 le.. then slowly drag till 5.. then 5+ .. Hazel already found me tired and wanna go home le.. and tot i angry, a little la.. (But not very angry, you all also didnt force me to stay.. i can go anytime actually..) Anyway, i feel that you like more angry than me.. lol. you seems like wanna kill me.. guess that time you are thinking " aiya.. wait awhile only cannot ah!?" haha. i tot things will cool down soon.. But it seems like when we meet at jurong east mrt that time during ange birthday, You still seems angry with me? You seems dun feel like talking to me.. until hazel starts topic and i started to talk.. Usually when we saw each other you confirm will smile at least.. K la.. already over so long le.. kk? k? k? friends forever right? RIGHT!? say Yes..! next time got thing must say.. like me.. haha.. i learned to say out and speak out le!

Yo! I am Back!

2006-10-05T04:58:00.000+08:00

Haiz.. i think that i really 3min hot degree.. last time when i just create blog.. 1 week can write 10 posts.. everyday sure got 1.. and now.. the last one before this was on AUGUST 25!!? Omg! more than 1 month le.. lol.. actually its not that i am busy.. its just that i am lazy.. i rather sleep ,watch show and play games.. i am even lazy to eat..

Just now saw ange hazel joey blogs le.. really makes me think back of secondary sch life.. i really hope that we can stay at the sec sch life.. study at dunearn sec until we die at 100 years old.. Lol.. Although i always pon sch and continue to enjoy sleeping.. doesnt mean that my friends in sch doesnt even attract me to school. (as in, i wont miss, and enjoy playing,chatting with them, but rather enjoy sleeping at home..) **maybe i really like sleeping more than with them =x** haha jkjk.. but i think is common la.. ange is another one like me also right!? but i know you still love us.. lol.. since theres still alot of time we can meet in sch and play together, why not just let me sleep one day at home.. we can still contact to hp.. hehe

Through speaking... it will seems like i am overslept so i didnt go to sch. Actually the alarm did rang and wake me up.. **i am already awake at that time** but i will still continue to sleep.. thinking that.. aiya, nvm la.. late awhile, wake up again 5-10min later.. then 10min later wake up. aiya.. still got a little time.. another 5min.. then wake up, aiya.. take taxi la.. another 10min.. aiya.. since already late, then go sch at 9am la.. then sleep another half an hour-1hr.. then after that i wake up again at 8+.. aiya.. 9am go, then 9+ reach, wait dm scold ask why so late, then need to call parent so ma fan, AIYA dun go sch la! write letter can le.. Soon, this becomes a habit..

sometimes i will be regret of missing a day of sch, as one day in sch with friends can gives me lots of happiness and laughters.. and when the next day i go to sch, if they are talking about yesterday things.. i will feel abit left out.. so abit regret.. But still, CANT STAND LA! very sleep lehz.. 6am wake up.. yesterday 12am then sleep.. easiest also 10pm then sleep.. sleep 6-8 hours nia.. sian sia.. but you guys will think "nvm la.. can go sch sleep ma... **like ange**<--buta (meaning pig in jap =x) " but do you think i can sleep well in such a noisy place!? haha..

actually i can type alot.. so once a month post 1 is enough for you to read.. type so long le.. the subject is still "Sleep".. nvm.. change topic..

talk about sec sch...??

Secondary One - Class 1N4 dunearn secondary school

friends hanging out with: Not Hazel, Not ange, Not joey.. <-- true speaking, during sec 1, I CANT FEEL THE EXISTANCE OF YOU GUYS! lol.. are you all ghosts???? like a group that always hide aside scaring ppl.. , those i hang out with is, celine, candy, xueli, zixin, manting,jamie, and who ah? argh.. actually my memory is poor.. 60% of my memory of sec 1 is already gone..
aiyo.. continue recalling will make my head burst.. buay ta han.. nvm.. skip

Secondary Two - Class 2N3 dunearn secondary school

friends hanging out with: still celine,candy,xueli,zixin,manting.. and who ah!? oh.. and those 4 foreigners, ivan,simon,sam,jericho<-- =.= (act dao wwf) i really enjoy with.. hehehehehehe.. cause they teach me bad things.. hahhah no la! cause they bring me out and enjoy the world outside.. and those sec 3,4 friends.. yong an,brandonx2,bryan,rodney, kimguan.. mmhz. dunno got remember wrong ma.. dunno sec 1 or 2.. we used to stay till late night.. sit at underpass bridge???(tian qiao).. go haunted house all this.. but i dun like some of them who smoking. just dun like them smoke, not dun like them.. smoking not good la.. try your best to stop.. p.s: papa.. hope we are heart are connected and you can understand how i feel when you smoke.. but i hope there is 2 ways wire connect to our heart.. wire A is the feeling from me to you.. and wire B is from you to me.. i hope that wire B is block la.. cause dun wan hear your reason for smoking.. (stupid reason =.= : dont smoke will die =.= you go eat shit better) you understand mine can le..

Secondary Three - 3N4 dunearn secondary school

is this where i join in the JALH group? <-- lol JoeyAngeLilingHazel.. dun think so.. although i am in the same class with joey.. she is still a ghost to me in 3n4.. cant feel her existance.. =x i think it is through celine candy xueli to get to know joey more?? aiya.. sec 3 is nothing much.. somehow like sec 2.. wah.. cant recall le.. head bursting soon.. faster jump to sec 5 better..

Secondary four - 4N4 dunearn secondary school

this is where me joey hazel ange start to get closer.. i find that they are actually more nice to be with.. cause our thinking and behaviour and attitude is more close to each other.. i mean.. i will prefer hanging out with them more.. they dont smoke.. lol.. like good girl.. not so fierce like celine they all.. haha... with them is like with Guan yin ma.. very "chi xiang" lol.. more understanding.. more happiness.. this is when celine left sch and its is suddenly like "all break out".. i am left alone.. so i start to make friends with hazel they all.. candy and xueli , i am still kinda close with them.. cause they when to 4N5... they got their own batch of friends to hang out with.. although ange and hazel is from 4N3.. but because joey is very close to them, she will still try to get close to them during recess, assembly all this or even running to their class(just next door i guess?) then i follow her.. lol (like gen pi cong)..

Secondary Five - 5N2 dunearn secondary school

the JAHL group become very good friends.. to me, is very best friends.. we almost hang out anytime anywhere without seperating.. we are in the same cca too.. me and hazel always go home together.. joey and ange always go home together.. but the stupid tutorial timing always separate us.. lucky even till now, when we graduate, we still somehow try our best to meet and go out together.. hope this will continues.. And i also hang out with some guy classmates.. weisheng eddie xingquan weiyang all this.. mMhz.. they.. not bad guy la.. wont do bad things bah.. treat me quite good.. didnt bully me.. great hanging out with them too.. got chance again can come my house play mahjong.. but i scare my father dun let weisheng play computer la.. LOL..

Now- Schooless, Jobless, BBDC student

our last meet is celebrating my birthday on 22th sep friday, ** dun mistaken, my bd is 24th**
ange so good.. bought me a short jean and a big baggy shirt.. i really like them.. and hazel bought me a necklace, with "DIAMOND" or crystal?? lol.. real or fake you should know.. like it also.. but hazel.. time to change le.. like always the same present.. all accessories related.. lol jkjk.. i prefer ang bao more lehz!! lol.. Joey bought me a birthday Cake! mango de lehz! BUT NOT ALMOND NUTS!.. peanuts.. haha.. during 24th.. my bro and sis in law and YOYO celebrate with me also.. this time is a small fruit cake, with ALMOND NUTS! hehe.. i choose de.. they pay.. at first i tot they just wanna treat me a cake.. so when i ate the piece of chocolate on top of the cake.. (if you guys know.. the chocolate got the shop name, every cake also got one) my bro suddenly caught me and shout wah dun eat first! haven celebrate! lol..

Think JAHL next meeting will be for ange's birthday on 19th Oct.. mMhz.. what should i buy for ange lehz.. cannot ang bao liao la.. wait hazel scold me again.. lol

mMhz.. btw.. when you guys know that i am schless, jobless, will you all feel.. "eeeeeeeeeee.. why like this so useless!"? lol.. mMhz.. i dun really care what others think le.. i had my own plan and thinking.. i enjoy slacking! lol.. rest awhile wont die bah! 15 years of continuous studies.. T.T
But soon.. if i can enter VSC.. i wont slack le! wake up le!

Aiya.. guess enough of updates le.. byebye

A New Baby Girl Is Born To This Earth!

2006-08-25T18:42:00.000+08:00

Hehe.. Recently busy with my sis so no time to blog.. She just give birth to a baby girl at 21st August 2006 3.47pm.. It's a Baby girl! a very cute double eyelid with 1 jiu wor at the left and 1 ni wor at the right.. lol.. weird? not very obvious.. maybe all sides also got but just that not obvious yet.. her double eyelid is damn deep that they seems like single eyelid when fully opened... maybe her eyes meat is still very pumpy（肿肿）.. Between.. Still dont know her name right? hehe.. her name is Amabel Loh Gui Xue (罗贵雪) hehe.. not bad not bad.. Urgent to see her cute little pics? hehe... coming soon~

Nowadays... i will be at my sis house to help her out in taking care her baby Amabel.. She got maid! But her maid.... Mmhz.. dont know how to take care.. got communication problem too.. and Amabel's daddy had to work.. and since i am so free... so....... go help bah~ no time online and play loooooo.....

I ALSO WANT TO HAVE MY OWN BABY NOW!!!